Wishes...

Well, this year is done damnit.

Lots of good and bad things, but mostly bad. I think that in general, this year as not been good for must of my friends and relatives. So... fuck this year.

Next year will be better, it must be.

I want to wish you all you hotties that read this bloggy a happy new year and that all your resolutions come to reality (if possible, if not, it doesn't matter... :P).

I love you all and i wish you all the best.

Thank you for being here with me.

Hugs and kisses... :)

Top 25 of 2006

Well, here's my list and i think it's pretty hot... WOOOOOOO!!!!! :D

1. Neko Case : Fox Confessor Brings The Flood
2. Joanna Newsom : Ys
3. Cat Power : The Greatest
4. Jenny Lewis & The Watson Twins : Rabbit Fur Coat
5. Rainer Maria : Catastrophe Keeps Us Together
6. TV On The Radio : Return To Cookie Mountain
7. Julieta Venegas : Limón y Sal
8. Junior Boys : So This Is Goodbye
9. The Rapture : Pieces Of The People We Love
10. Isobel Campbell & Mark Lanegan : Ballad Of The Broken Seas
11. Casiotone For The Painfully Alone : Etiquette
12. Be Your Own Pet : Be Your Own Pet
13. Nelly Furtado : Loose
14. Girl Talk : Night Ripper
15. The Pipettes : We Are The Pipettes
16. Peter Bjorn and John : Writer’s Block
17. Howe Gelb : 'sno Angel Like You
18. Camera Obscura : Lets Get Out Of This Country
19. Liars : Drum's Not Dead
20. Mastodon : Blood Mountain
21. Califone : Roots And Crowns
22. Tim Hecker : Harmony In Ultraviolet
23. Lily Allen : Alright, Still
24. Deftones : Saturday Night Wrist
25. Boris : Pink

Merry christmas to all you hotties. I love each an every one of you... :)

Just let it take you...

Well, my work with Monica at the Fund is done now so, i'm kinda on vacations.

On january i start working at the film fest again and i can't wait. I dunno why i'm so excited now, maybe is because this time i'm gonna put 110% of my energy on that.

The year is ending and i'm almost done with my top 25 best albums of the year list. I love making this list, haha, i dunno why, but each year is laik exciting to make. So, make yours and post damnit, post.

I've been doing pretty ok-ish, i ended something that got me stressed out for some time now. It was getting physical, like i was having stomach aches everyday, head aches, lots of acne and stuff. I was letting my emotional wreck get out of my soul by doing this things to my body. Anyway, i talked to Monica and she wisely adviced me to solve the thing or things that was inside of me, so i did. I talked to the problem and told him that i couldn't be there anymore, that it was something i couldn't handle and liked. He understood and parted our own ways. I'll post something i wrote within the week to see what you guys think.

AAAAny way, i must admit, that Justin Timberlake album is REALLY good, and i'm kinda not embarrased to say it aloud... :P

Christmas kisses and hugs to all goddmanit... :) :*

Are You In?

That's an awesomely sexy Incubus song and i'm proud that i have it on my iBod, haha, i really am... :D

I'm two weeks away from finishing my work at the Fund and get a vacation. I really need it. I had my trip to Europe planned for these weeks but i'm really glad that i changed it to march, because i feel very tired and i don't wanna feel this way when i go there. I wanna absorb everything (and everyone, hahaha!) and i won't be tired.

Vinnie (my dog, Dogo's son) is getting better and better everyday, with his medicine. It's an articulation rebuilder, so he can go up and down again and keep playing with everyone.

Crappy post not?... :P

Robert Altman 1925 - 2006

"Robert Altman, the beloved director of such classics as M*A*S*H, Nashville, 3 Women, The Player, Short Cuts, and, most recently, A Prairie Home Companion, has died at age 81 of undisclosed causes. One of the most acclaimed American filmmakers of all time, Altman had a staggering fifty-plus-year career, moving from the early days of television serials to the big screen, where, in the seventies, he revolutionized mainstream cinema with his multilayered soundtracks and sprawling multicharacter narratives."

It's a very strange feeling that i have right now, and i dunno if it's because i'm a freak or what, but lemme tell you. All day i've been sad about this news, because Altman is one of my top 5 directors in the world. His movies are very important to me, i grew up with them. His portrail of women is remarkable, he always puts it in the middle of his work (his most important work), like an engine, like the core of everything, and that's really important for me.

May he rest in peace and we'll miss him very much in this universe... :'(

Morelia...

I just came back from my visit to Morelia's International Film Festival. It's a festival that is in one of the most conservative states in the republic, but the people of the chain of movie theatres thought of the bright idea of making it there... :P

Anyway, the festival was on it's 4th year and this time i got to go, because my sister is working with Ambulante, the documentary film tour around the republic. Ambulante is part sponsored by Cinepolis, the movie theatre corporative, so every year they get to anounce the programm of next year.

The closing day of the Morelia Fest was yesterday night and i got invited to the party by my sister and boss. So, i took Danaé, Emilia (Danaé's friend), Alberto (Danae's brother) and Denisse (Alberto's friend). We drank so much it was unhealthy... HAHAHAHA!!!!!!!! And there where cute guys all around... :P

I came home today, just a few hours ago and my mom told me that Vinnie is ok, the vet gave her medicine for the pain from now on, and he's been normal. I opened the door and there he was, like always, so cute... :)

I'll tell you more latur...

Where You've Been Hiding

Stuck at your front gate
Wth some pictures I just want to hand you

Almost made the door knock twice
Broke down on your veranda

Turn the dry concrete
Into wet concrete

I can’t find you anywhere
Find you find you find you find you
I can’t find you anywhere
Pictures pictures pictures pictures
So I wrote you a letter
In capital letters
Saying all that I care for
All that i care for is
Where you’ve been hiding

Where you’ve been hiding
Which way the habits collect
Neatly upon your stairs
Which way we’ll be end them both discreetly
Leaving ‘em for dead
When I find, when you find, when we find, when I’ve found
Where you’ve been hiding

Where you’ve been hiding

It's been a while.

Yo, it's been a month since i don't update... :O

I thought it was like three weeks or so, but anyway, i'm gonna do it now.

Things have been kinda fast for the past weeks, Monica was making all the arrangements to go to Korea and China, for the performing arts fairs of both countries. So, i helped her with all the plane tickets, hotel reservations, technical requirements for the groups to perform in the fairs, etc.

Well, then Monica went off to that trip and i got in charge of the office (not much to do, except archiving some stuff). I had time to do Maddy's stuff, the research for the Film Fest and the directors, but then Maddy told me that we we're not going to do that anymore and that she will tell me latur.

I've been ok i guess, feelings-like, a little bit nostalgic for things that i keep thinking about, but i have to accept that that's over and i have to move on.

what keeps me worried is that Vinnie (my dog, Dogo's son) has a very serious hip problem, he can't walk too much now, he's lying in the couch or in the bed with my parents, he doesn't want to move much due to that problem. That hip operation that he need, here in Mexico costs around $1,500 dollars, which is a lot of money for us right now, so, that occupies my mind most of the time... :(

Anyway, i'm sure he's gonna be ok, he's such an amazing dog, just like is dad... :)

Love you all... :)

Of all the angels you're the most divine...

Past week at work has been ok, nothing much to do really. I've been writing letters to the chinese arts festival that the big boss is going, so i had lots to worry about for my english not be too bad... :D

Also, Maddy called me to work in the Film Fest again, which made me very very happy. I'm gonna do the same as the past years plus inviting important directors, actors, cinematographers, editors, etc. to come and give a masterclass or course or whatever they want to give. If you guys have names please tell me so i can start working on them right away. :)

I finally bought the official PJ dvd and i found a cd for sale, which rocks ass and always wanted to buy it but it was sooooo fucking expensive when it was released: Lucinda Williams's World Without Tears

My birthday is coming soon and i'm a little bit sad, but i think that happens to all of us whenever our birthdays are getting close.

Love you my darling, and the title of this entry it for you... *heart*

Fool

Well, it's time for writing, now that i'm a bit better... :D

Better because i had bronquitis all the past week, caused because the last time i had the flu i didn't took care of myself that good and last week i got stuck under the rain, so, in consecuence i had bronquitis... :'(

Amazing good news: Cat Power is going to perform here september 20th and my sista bough me the tickets as a birthday present. I'm really really happy and excited to go see her, not that she's all calmed down and doesn't go home in the middle of her show... :D

Also, a week ago i started working with Monica. Basically what i have to do is making an inventory of all the international performing arts festivals and markets that the director of the Fund. And keeping her company and translate some letter and stuff, no big deal. WOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

I've been watching a lot of my favorite movies recently, and not because i had planned to do it, it's just weird that almost all of them are being aired on TV here. So, i was kinda thinking in making a small review of them later on, just for fun.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! :)

Tonight Was A Disaster

you went out with your best sweater on
with every intention of dancing til dawn
but when the dj played that song
it all went wrong

and crying in the cab ride home
with the frank sinatra on the radio
but it might as well have been lil kim
when every song you hear still reminds you of him

and you'll say that it's no big deal
but it's the shake in your voice that gives away how you feel
and you couldn't have slammed the door any faster

yeah you'll say that it's no big deal
but it's the tears on your face that give away how you feel
they say tonight tonight was a disaster

Sussie and I

My lovely Sussie and the beast... :)

'Cause You Are My Revolver...

Well, been a two weeks since i don't update so... here i go.

I've been taking a course for my subjects that i owe for high school and with these exams, i'm totally done and ready to move on to another thing.

The course has been nice, some nice teachers and some others not quite so, but, what can i do? The test is very close and i had to find something quick and cheap.

So, taking this course has taken a lot of time that i had for my friends and my stuff, so i wasn't able to update here or see my hotties online (an apology.)

Ok, so that was that and i hope to write some interesting news as soon as possible.

Love you all... :)

1

Sade : No Ordinary Love
Dir: Sophie Muller

This is it, this is the one, this is my favorite video of all times. If there's anything in this world more full of powerfull music and images combined, is this video. This video is stuck with me since the first time i saw it, in 1992 when i was 10 years old. There are two elements in the video that makes it very important for me, that is the lonely bride and the mermaid elemnts.

Sophie Muller directed this video with such style, such image story-telling that it's beyond my imagination. Besides, the Sade's song has it's place on it's own. The song is what i call, a timeless love song, full of passion and full of sentiment.

I fucking love this video damnit... WOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

Thank you very much sticking to this idea of mine, i hope you had a nice time watching and listening to this stuff... I love you all. :)

2

PJ Harvey : C'mon Billy
Dir. Maria Mochnacz

I think pretty much everyone who read this bloggy knows that my favorite artist is PJ Harvey, by far. But as much as i love her and her music, i really don't think any of her videos make her justice or justice to the song, except the ones that came from To Bring You My Love and the ones that came from Stories From The City...

I think Maria Mochnacz does a wonderfull video and brings out a great performance by Polly, with great cinematography and amazing energy.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! PJ!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!! :D

3

Björk : Possibly Maybe
Dir. Stephane Sednaoui

Of all of Björk's videos, i think this one is the one i love the most (the other ones includes Oceania and Triumph Of The Heart). I think Sednaoui made a perfect video, because the songs has different textures and colours, and he gave the lyrics and music their perfect balance on the screen.

Just perfect... <3

PS: Turn the volume of your speakers a bit because the clip has no good sound quality) :P

4

Portishead : Only You
Dir. Chris Cunningham

In any best music video list has to come up the name of Chris Cunningham, responsable of such amazing imagery of the likes of Björk, Maddona, Aphex Twins and this amazingly beautiful Portishead video. I love this song, it is my favorite Portishead song and i'm really happy that Cunningham made the song justice, giving it a very obscure, haunting and ghostly feel to it.

WOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

5

Interpol : Obstacle 1
Dir. Floria Sigismondi

Talking about female directors for music videos, Floria Sigismondi did a wonderfull job directing this video for Interpol. Taking only black and white as the main colours for the band and red for being the evil lady in red, representing anger and resentment that the song is talking about. Floria cast herself because they couldn't find anyone who could do that type of movements the way she wanted to, but only herself ... and i think she did a perfect job in both, directing and perfoming.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

6

Nelly Furtado : Try
Dir. Sophie Muller

There are not a lot of female video directors out there, so, i've always admired the courage that Sophie Muller has by making her way and having a place among the great visual artists of the 90s. I love this song, i really do, and i love the video more than anything in the world. I read that Nelly and Sophie wanted to give it a Days Of Heaven kinda look, and they absolutly did.

In the video, the couple is having rough economic times at home, so the boy goes out and looks for work, while the girl stays home and waits for her husband. While she's waiting, she longs for a sweet hug of her hurband and she gets unpatient and goes after him. And the video ends in the most beautiful way ever... :)

7

Tori Amos : A Sorta Fairytale
Dir. Sanji

This is a great great video. It portrays what a perfect fairytale is all about. The lovers have physical imposibilities but they stick to each other, until he founds a defect of her that she didn't wanted to reveal, so he laughs and she gets kinda hurt. So, what she does is run and tries to hide her defect back. But he founds her and make her understand that her beauty is more about her, than her deffect. And love makes them complete again and breaks the curse. And: IT HAS ADRIEN BRODY, an amazing performance by Tori, with great cinematography.

Very pretty isn't it? :)

8

Fiona Apple : Never Is A Promise
Dir. Stephane Sednaoui

This is the third video that Fiona did to promote TIDAL, and i think she saved the best for last. In this video directed by Stephane Sednaoui, Fiona unleashes all of her vulnerability and her sensitivity. The empty street and the lights give perfect harmony for a song about loneliness and disarming one's trust and love with lies.

Woooooooo!!!!!!!!

9

Janet Jackson : Got 'Til It's Gone
Dir. Mark Romanek

Mark Romanek is one of the most talented visual artist of the past decade. His visuals are one of a kind and his videos are always related with a piece of art he admires. This video has to be one of his bests (IMHO), it features Janet Jackson in her most beautiful look in a music video. The idea of the video is to capture the essense of a community, their perfections and imperfections (which leads us to another kinda of beauty).

Anyway, check it out... :)

10

Roger Sanchez : Another Chance
Dir: Phillipe Andre

I don't like the song that much, but the video is so amazing. The girl and the heart and the guy who sees her sadness and wants to help her get her joy back, it's simply stunning.

<3

Videos

Ok, with the recent YouTube fever everywhere (and i mean everywhere), i've had the idea of posting my top 10 favorite music videos.

The past two could count, but they don't, because i posted them before this idea... :D

Love to ya all... :)

Beautiful

Mazzy Star : Flowers In December
Dir. Kevin Kerslake

One of the best music videos of the world... <3

Wow...

Stina Nordenstam - Little Star
Dir. Michel Gondry

<3

Burn

Love is like a tyranny.
And I'm a tyrant sentencing.
You said that you believed in me
and would burn for your beliefs.

I watched you burn,
burn for me.
I watched you burn,
burn for me.

Love's some kind of sorcery,
an inquisition's questioning.
You said that you believed in me
and to take you on some time.
You said that you believed in me
and would burn for your beliefs.

I watched you burn.
I watched you burn for me.
I watched you burn,
burn for me.

But now I wonder how
I stood by and I let you down.
But maybe I couldn't see
that you would burn for me.
You were strong and clever
and I didn't know any better.

. . . didn't know any better.
I could have set you free
but I watched you burn.
I could have set you free
but I watched you burn.
Yeah, I could have set you free
but I watched you burn.

Yellow

The entry titles are from things that surround me in the PC, so, don't pay much attention. And i've decided i'm gonna put "Short Story" to my short stories so people won't get confussed about what's a story and what's an entry.

Well, since last wednesday i've been resting for all the work i did in Gateway Of The Americas, almost two weeks ago. Gateway is an arts market, people from all over the world come and rent a stand in the fair, show their proposals and managers and programmers from festivals or theathers come and see what's new or what's interesting and buy show dates and stuff. It's a cool idea, many countries in the world does it with great results.

So, i was working there with the coordinator of international delegates, Monica, who is the boss of my sister's job now. My sister talked to Monica about me and she called me to work with her as backup and stuff. I was helping her out with questions and any needs that the international people could ask.

I knew a lot of new people, but specially, i knew a really awesome sir named Felipe, who is a teacher at the University of Philadelphia. He's a theater guy, an urbanist and i don't remember what else, but he's über cool. He is the most charming gentleman i've knew in my life, so humble and so smart, funny, witty and generous (he gave us a huge chocolate cake)... :O

Monica, my boss, was cool too. Very funny and spunky, we got along truely well. She's so sweet. I hope i can work with her another time... :)

Now, the only thing i want, is rest for a month or so... :D

Love... :*

Meaning

The meaning of Snob:

"I know I'm a snob when people say obvious stupid things about things they think they know – but don't. I'm not a snob towards people who doesn't claim they know things. You know?"

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:D

We float...

Well, i don't understand why no one comments on my short stories (do they suck?). Although the last one wasn't a story, but a dairy entry... :P

Yesterday was cool. I went to see Maria Daniela y Su Sonido Lasser and they were really groovy. They play horribly but it's such a fun show.

At the place i was with my friends Priscilla, Jefferson and Brenda. Later in the night came my sister Isadora, after Nancy and Jocabed. After a very uncomfortable incident that i went through with someone of my pass, we decided to go to a place called BullPen. That place is really ugly, like low, a lot of different people get together in there. It's an afterhours place. Anyway, we all went and it was real fun, because the place is very small, like a two room place, very small rooms, haha. We sweated everything (i was very drunk :P) and we laughed and we danced, it was like a moshpit in there. Very cool.

I got home at 5:15am and i have a terrible headache still... :D :P

Love... :)

Overload

Damn, what a match we were...

I saw him last tuesday, at 12pm at the cinema. I had a phone conversation with him a few months back, when i worked at the film fest. He was charming as always and i was afraid as i've always been around him. It's my nature.

Anyway, i saw him at the cinema complex. He was on-time like he's used to really. I was weird the first hour, because i knew the situation we were in this time. I was the other one, the one who he is not commited to. I really felt like i was doing something wrong, because i was, and it killed my senses. I wanted to tell him so many things that i'd been thinking about for the past months, the past year and nothing came out naturally, like i would have wanted.

But we bought tickets to the movies and we saw Match Point, haha, believe it or not, the perfect movie for the perfect cheater date. We sat at the film theather and it went all to hell. The theather were alone and we were the only people there. After 10 minutes that the movie started, a really old sir came in the theather and sat like 5 rows in front of us. He began to snore really really loud after 20 minutes of the film, haha, that was really funny. Anyway, he began to touch my knee and i moved. He tried to near his knee next to mine and i moved. I couldn't resist no more when he searched for my hand and grabed it.

It was bizarre, because i knew we were really different in many ways. But we always end up doing what kept us together those years. We were nice to each other in moments we needed too. And in that moment, we needed that.

We talked a bit, just a bit, about unimportant matters. We said goodbye like we always do. And then he kissed me. In front of everyone, in the afternoon. And i took that kiss back. Without guilt or regret or caring about other people's opinion. I'm kinda proud of myself for that.

Short Story: Kiss

I was standing in the subway next to him, like an act of destiny, i got in that same wagon, that same train, next to that particular soul.

My hands where trembling, my feet began to ache, it was all very strange. The time moved so slow, it seemed like a small building was becoming bigger and bigger.

I started to feel the soft breathing on my neck, the sweet smell of his hair, the sound of his deep voice while he coughed to make me notice him, but i didn't turned. He knew i saw him, he noticed my body start to get nervous, my hair falling down my face without me not even trying to put it in it's place.

My mind started to pull tricks on me, it started to give me flashes of moments that reminded me of him. But the most important one, was the one he had in mind too...

It was at night, after a concert, we were very happy because the band played our song. As we walked to the subway station, he holded my hand, thing that he never did until that moment and that moment only. We walked down the station and we stood there, next to the rail, waiting for the next train to pass by. As we were standing there, he huged be from behind and i could feel his beard on my neck, a nice itchie feel, a pleasant itch. He started to sing me the song the band played. And then, he grabbed me by the arms and turned me around, huged me with such sweetnes that it can't be described. Then he started to get closer to me, i closed my eyes and i felt his warm, loving and caring mouth againt mine. I tasted his soul, his thoughts, his feelings, his longings and for the first time, i had the first glance of heaven and of happiness. In that very moment, he made me feel complete.

That flashed ended when the subway doors opened and people started to get out in that stop. He was gonna get off in that stop, because i felt him moved is backpack to start walking though the doors.

Then, as the alarm of the doors closing sound, he passed me by and put a note in my jacket's pocket. He got out and stood there, watching me and he said goodbye waving his hand, with that lovely smile he has.

As the train began it's way, he started walking to the stairs. I lost sight of him when the trained passed that tunnel, so, i grabed the note from my pocket and opened it. It said: "Don't you wish we could forget that kiss?"

I don't wish that i could forget that kiss, because in that kiss, he got a piece of my soul and he gave me a piece of his heart.

Calendar

My weekend was just tiring damnit. On friday i went to the birthday party of my ex-boss Blanca's boyfriend and it was just extreme, i drank myself to death (almost :P) and took care of my sister Isadora who was worse than me. Pris, Danaé, Brenda and Nancy went too and we all had a nice drunkin' time... WOOOOOOO!!!! :D

On saturday i was über hung-overed, we stayed at my sister Isaura's apartment to sleep, because we didn't wanted to come back home, the distance from the place of the party to my house is a bit far and it would have been expensive, so, we decided to go with my sis who is far more close. Anyway, we woke up and my sisters went for breakfast and stuff, so i sleept some more, haha... :D

After we had breakfast, we had to go to my country house because all my family was there, celebrating Mother's Day (which here in México is on May 10th) so, we went and on the highway it was such a horrible transit, but horrible, normally we make one hour and half to get there. Well, not this time, we did 3 hours to get there because of the exit of the highway.

Anyway, we got there and it was all the same, haha, nothing changes... nothing. I was there with my family a bit and i returned home with Isaura and Jorge (his husband) because they had Jorge's family lunch celebrating Mother's day too... :P

I still feel drunk from friday, hahahah!!!! :P

Speaker

Damn, it's been almost a month since i wrote (put the lyrics) here and it's a bit shocking, because for me, time has passed to damn fast that i didn't noticed how long that was... :O

I have been doing ok i guess, lots of up-and-down moments in these past weeks. I'm jobless now, which means that i'm hanging out with my thoughts only.

My sister told me if i could help her out in a performing arts fair that she's working on right now and it will only be 5 days, which seems very nice and i need the money and the distraction.

I saw Depeche Mode last friday in concert. It was really really awesome, so much fucking energy and it was a big stadium, so many people jumping and dancing. Martin Gore has such a pretty voice, he sang HOME and i almost cried my brains out. They played two hours straight and it was brilliant. I think that after PJ's concert, this was the one that follows... :)

I promise i won't keep this as empty as it's been... i love you all that keep reading this bloggy, because you are the people i write for... :)

Love.

Long Knives

well baby
did our sky fall down
and no one wants no one wants no one wants
to rebuild it now
we once drew a crowd
with my evil eye
and your crazy mouth
let's get over each other
let's get over each other

well baby
did our time run out
and no one wants no one wants no one wants
to rebuild it now
i liked it best how
we took the whole world on
back to back
long knives drawn

let's get over each other
let's get over each other
so that we can fall in love again
so that we can fall in love again

won't you ho-ho-hold me
ho-ho-hold me
make believe that
you don't loathe me

am I mistaken
when I woke up this morning
without you there I'm shaken
to the very foundation

once there was something
and now there's just a piece of atmosphere

am I mistaken
when I woke up this morning
without you there
I'm shaken to the very foundation

Damn

Today my dear sista Yessica left to Europe to live, for a year she says, but i think it will be more than that.

I feel a really big empty space now, in my heart. It's really hard to explain, but i'm gonna miss her, very very much.

I love you Yeya and i hope everything you ask, come true... :)

*kiss*

Bodbert

I did it all for the bodbert,
The bodbert
So you can take that cockbert
And stick it up your *yeah*
Stick it up your *yeah*
Stick it up your *yeah*
Stick it up your...

WTF?

What the fuck is up with these fuckings nuts???



Love ya darlings!!!!!!!!!!! :D

:D :D :D :D :D :D

:* :* :* :* :* :*

This Time

This time
We are made of paper
We are the crust of a tree
That doesn’t have anything to do
With the sweating of the wind

We’re napkin
And the light receipt
We’re napkin
And the light receipt

This time we are made of paper
We’re the infractions
And we’re the pages of the bible
This time we are honest

We’re napkin
And the light receipt
We’re napkin
And the light receipt

This time we are made of paper
We’re the infractions
This time we are honest
For ever
For ever
For ever

It's a Julieta Venegas song that rocks ass... :'(

Bods will be bods

It's not easy love-
but you've got bods you can trust...

Bods will be bods
When you're in need of love they give you care and attention
Bods will be bods
When you're through with life and all hope is lost
Hold out your hand cos bods will be bods-
Right till the end

For P, L, Y, J, D and everyone i'm missing out... i love you guys. :*

Taken from Da Bod's Bloggy... :)

So that was that

Today i went to talk to Blanca, to quit the job.

She seemed kinda like me, like we both stopped carring a heavy lift off our shoulders. I told her that i got a permanent job at the Film Fest (which is a lie) and that they offered me more money (did she said that money was not a problem and she would give me more? of course not). Anyway, she told me she was very happy for me because she knew that film is my life and that it was an important thing for me. Also told me that she was not going to search for another assistant because of the shitty payment and all. We parted as friends, very quiet and very simple, no dramas or anything.

The only thing that i could tell you is that i won't miss that place at all... AT ALL!!!!

I dunno what i'm gonna do next, but i think i have some spare time to decide what's next, not? :)

Return to form...

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

I'm back and ready for everything that comes in my way goddamnit. :P

Tomorrow i'm gonna quit the Foundation job, because it's giving me troubles and innecesary worries than benefits, so, fuck that motherfucker job... :D

The festival was nice, not quite like last year, but nice. The best part of it was that i saw Javier Porta Fouz again, and it was a pleasure and a delight to hang out and hear him talk about films and stuff again, he's the most amazing film critic i've read and known. We talked about the festival being very very disorganized and that everything was just weird and upside down, and he was quite right, everyone had troubles in their areas and that became obvious. But i believe that the Education Project (the project of Maddy) went very well, every school was awesome and the students came out really happy of the screenings.

I love you guys, for keep reading the bloggy and for being there for me... i really love you all very very much... :)

Memories that unleashes other things...

Well, i guess that i have to update what i've been doing these past month and a half or so.

I'm working in the two places (Foundation and Film Fest) and both jobs have been killing me slowly, because it's too much of a sacrifice to be enough time in both places. In the morning, i go to the Foundation with Blanca, and i can't stand Blanca's way of asking for things. She's like a very very complicated person to work with, because she blows up a little simple thing out of proportion and it's simply not right. But then again, that is what's paying my depts and paying my airplane ticket to go see my bods.

And then there is the Film Fest. In that place i feel save, because i know everybody and because everybody likes me and we all have a good time. It's getting kinda complicated now because Maddy is doing other stuff too and she's not very focused on what's important AT THE MOMENT, not when the festival is over. So, because she's into something else, she's not updating me on the stuff she changes, and i'm stuck with the stuff i had before and people ask me stuff and i dunno whether she changed it or left it like i have it, i dunno, it's hard. But not compaired with Blanca, Maddy is such a cool and undertanding person, she asked me stuff nicely or we divided the job to make it easier and faster.

In my life i've been kinda ok-ish. Everything normal until yesterday, that Yessica lended me Brokeback Mountain. I really really wanted to see it, and not just because the gay thing, but because i've heard good comments and nice reviews and all about it. So, i watched it and it got to me, i mean, IT REALLY DID, i couldn't sleep because i kept thinking about the damn fucking movie and i was crying. It's such a personal film experience that i'm talking about here, that's why i love movies, they connect in the right time at the right place, and this time it did. I kinda needed to see that and let that out of my heart.

You have to see it, it's really a beautiful powerfull film. Heath Ledger keeps surprising me and Michelle Williams is kinda brilliant. The cinematography is lovely. Hell, i really recommend you guys see it.

I dunno how to let you go for fuck's sake and it's killing me. I always keep telling someone that read this bloggy to let go of that fucking horrible experience that he had, but i'm not able to do what i advice, and i know it's hard and i know it's not easy letting go of experiences that in some fucking weird way enrich your life and make it nice. I really need to let you go and to accept that i fucked up and i will regret it for the rest of my life.

Love.

I'm Still Your Fag

Heard about your wife and kids where we slept
Felt their mouths with stitches at that were slowly lit
Capture uniform this time because I couldn't quit
Haven't felt the ground so cold without getting sick

And I'm still your fag
I'm still your fag

It's a possibility to live without lips
Kleenex love to fill right up with all the broken kids
I swore I drank your piss that night to see if I could live
But my wrists couldn't stand the light that we missed

And I'm still your fag
I'm still your fag

You're only coming out because you came back in
You're only coming out cause you came back in

I'm still your fag
I'm still your fag

To the birthday bod... :)

Love ya goddamnit... :) :*

Gifts will follow... ;)

:)

"Words"

I cannot resist words

I cannot resist
words hug me

like the madness of an octopus
the wandering of your tongue

I cannot resist
the breath of your mouth
flames
red like a throat
travelling its path
and the shadow
the body cannot resist
the deep dagger being born
words
being born

the warm trajectory
of your tongue
I speak
words chose me.

"My pleasure" by Renata Pallotini

My pleasure is a dream in your body.

The image arouses in you a night of ferns
and dark pillows hidden long ago.
I close my eyes and see you among the leaves
and you desire me as one desires life.
You have been walking toward this moment
and the path feels centuries warm.
You ask me nothing: the body is a ready answer.
Deep and oily like damp bridges
moving from stair to stair in the secret twilight.

And we kiss consciously
kissing every angle of those kisses
until blood alters the volume of things
and a repressed joy reaches the color of fire.

Your pleasure is my body's mirror
stretching itself like a silver thread
wound around my neck
saying
words.

"I can't help it, my love, i can't help it" by Carilda Oliver Labra

I can't help it, my love, I can't help it
when I go into your mouth, and I linger;
and almost without warning, almost for naught,
I touch you with the tips of my breasts.

I touch you with the tip of my breasts
and with my unshielded loneliness;
and even perhaps without love as a guide
I can't help it, my love, I can't help it.

And my fate as a sheltered fruit
is consumed by your lustful and hesitant hands
like a poison's broken promise.

And though I'd like to kneel down and kiss you
when I go into your mouth, and I linger,
I can't help it, my love, I can't help it.