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Sometimes is really hard to figure out why you act like you do. I dunno why, but lately i've been weird in general. I feel like my brain and my body are different things.

I'm running out of friends. Soon all my real friends would go away and i'll be the only one who stays here doing nothing of his life.

<3

I know I'm alone if I'm with or without you
but just bein' around you offers me another form of relief
When the lonliness leads to bad dreams
and the bad dreams lead me to callin' you
and I call you and say "C'MERE!"

<3

Rest Of My Life

there are worse ways for a guy to spend his time
than to sit and think of you
i think i'd marry you
just your smile
leaves me satisfied
though you're not mine

so for the rest of my life
i'm gonna search for someone just like you

and we tend the garden all day long
watching history unfold
and i'd be enough
and you'd be enough
and we'd grow old

so for the rest of my life
i'm gonna search for someone just like you

for the rest of my life
i'm gonna search for someone just like you

yeah, for the rest of my life
i'm gonna search for someone just like you

Love Despite Of Great Faults

You will move
With me we will
Stay still and
Words will move around us.
Surround us in gold
And in our world
We will be
Silent.

You will swim
To me we will
Be free
And words will move around us
Swim around us
Surround us in schools
And in our cool
We'll be reminded.

That you refuse to fade away
I hide to stay the same
Where do we go from here
I don't know.

For me you flower to be chosen
I fall down to be noticed
Where do we go from here i don't know.

It was a time
A way of life
The only secrets
We talked about
Were all the fears
In all these years
We spent together

I forgot...

Pieter hates me :(

Louise hates me :(

and i dunno why... :(

Things

Well, nothing much to tell really.

I've been working on the festival and stuff. Not much good things to do yet. I haven't told Maddy about the money 'cause i haven't been much in the office anyway. :P

She told me that the festival guys are gonna give travel money and stuff so... wooooo!!!! ;)

Ohhh!!! And i got another job in abril. An art festival, one of the most important and influential and i'm gonna be a translator for artist... WOOOO!!!!! I'm really excited about that one. And this one i am gonna get payed... WOOOOO WOOOOOO WOOOOOO!!!!!!!

Listening a lot to Rilo Kiley : More Adventurous 'cause it's simply gorgeus.

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Mmmm

These past few days were kinda boring, kinda the same as usual.

I have to go work only monday's and wednesdays from 11am to 1pm and it is going to be a drag. I'm seriously thinking in telling Maddy that i have "another" job offer or something because of the paying insident.

I've been to Yessica almost all week in her search for job interviews and all and it has been fun hanging all day with her, she makes me laugh so hard. :)

I've missed the bods so much it's not even funny... :'(

I LOVE YOU GUYS AND I MISS YOU SO MUCH... :'(

*hugs*

Past days events

This was my week so far.

Monday i went to work all excited and stuff, left here at 9 and got there at 11 sharp. I waited and went up the office i'm gonna work in. Maddy, my "boss" was not there yet, so i decided to go outside the cinema to have a smoke. I waited and waited for half an hour and i didn't see her arrive.

While i was waiting for her, i say a guy walking around and he seemed kinda ansious and nervous, so i was kinda focusing on him 'cause i didn't had nothing to do. Suddenly, a girl came from the door my office is in and walked across the cinema to him. She said hello and all and sat at the table right next to me. They started to talk and blah blah, you know, boring stuff. But then she said this: "Well, lemme tell you about the money. We as coordinators of these areas we have the permission to get 2 asistents with 400 dollars each, i know is quite shitty, but it's money anyway". Right there i was like.... WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!

Maddy told me she didn't had any money to offer me and shit, but after i heard that girl talking about the money, i was in shock and very pissed. And then Maddy arrived and apologysing and stuff. I didn't say anything 'cause i'm a wimp and a wussie and went along with everything. But guess what? she didn't had anything to put me to work, she can handle everything herself. Weird not? K, then, 'cause she had nothing to put me to do, she sent me to deliver some stuff and blah blah blah like a fucking office boy and shit... ARRRGGHHHH... i was so pissed!!! >:

Anyway, you can guess that i'm having a horrible time and i don't want to go there anymore and i'm seriously thinking in not going. But the Peter Greenaway films premiers and the Sally Potter talks don't let me get out.... WHAT THE FUCK SHOULD I DO??????

I wanna cry... :'(

Love ya all and miss ya lots... :(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BODBERTO!!!!!

Love ya bod and i hope you have a wonderfull time... :)

Don't drink much and don't have to much sex... k? :'(

:)

Like you say... "Gifts Will Follow" ;)

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*hug*

I Never

I'm only a woman
of flesh and bone
an i wept much
we all do
i thought i might die alone

but i have
never never never
never never never
never never never
never never met you
so baby be good to me

i got nothing to give you
you see
except
everything everything
everything everything
all the good and the bad
'cause i've been bad
i've lied, cheated, stolen and
been ungrateful for what i had

and i'm afraid habits rule my waking life
i'm scared and i'm runnin' in my sleep
for you
but all the oceans, and rivers and showers
will wash it all away and make me clean for you

'cause i have
never never never
never never never
never never never
never never met you

so lets take a loan out
put it down on a house
in a place we've never lived
in a place that exists
in the pages of scripts
and the songs that they sing
and all of the beautiful things
that make you weep but
don't have to make you weak

'cause i've
never never never never
never never never never
never never never never
never never never never
never never never never
never never never never
never never never never
loved someone the way
that i loved you

awesome!!!!!!!

:'(

Well...

I got the job... woooooooo!!!!

The only thing about it is as a voluntear... HAHAHAH!!!!

I won't earn any money, but i'm gonna help out in the workshops and open air film presentations... :)

Emir Kusturika, Sally Potter, Buck Henry and Todd Solondz are coming and i'm gonna be able to see them all for free so... WOOOOO!!!!!

Not so bad not? *shy*

Love ya all... :)

Primed & Ticking

I believe I fell from above
Primed and ticking for your love
I believe I could rub you right
Hang and dollar you day and night
I believe I could stretch your hopes
Widely as his mercy flows
Come on baby, give me your time
I've seen it in the stars, you're mine
I believe my days will end with you
It's you

I'm so young and I'm so strong
Get my blood up when I'm gone
Nothing, baby, is too big for me
Take it from his company
I could take you to heaven's highs
Trust me baby, I'll rub you right
I don't eat, I don't need to sleep
Fire and desire's good enough for me
I believe my days will end with you
It's you

I think I'm ticking
I think I'm ticking
I'm primed and ticking
I think I'm ticking

I believe my days will end with you
It's you

I believe my days will end with you

You look at me like I shot your dog
Venus, me, I'm the god of love
Don't you turn your back, beauty queen
Remember how I wiped you clean
I could stretch your wildest hopes
As widely as his mercy flows
You gorgeous stack of pancakes, you
You're going nowhere till I'm through
I believe my days will end with you
It's you

I believe my lonesome days are through
It's you

I think I'm ticking
I think I'm ticking
I'm primed and ticking
I think I'm ticking

I believe my days will end with you

There's still hope...

Wooooooooooooooo!!!!!!

I have a job interview monday afternoon to work in a film festival in february... wooooooo!!!!

Cross fingers all you bods for good luck... k? :D

Love ya all... :)

New Days

This past couple of days of the new year hasn't been all shitty. Last weekend i went with my friend Danaé and her cousin Jessica to my house in Oaxtepec to drink and have fun, which we all did (taking the incident were Danaé threw up in my dad's plants :P). Jessica and i had a nice talk over the days and it was great, real fun, i enjoyed it.

I've got back the package i sent to L AAAGGGAAAIIIIINNNNN with a little note that said "please don't send candy again, it has another value" AAAARRRGGGGGHHHHHHHH. I was so pissed i called to the post office for the first time and ask why my packages had return so many fucking times and the guy said he didn't knew, that it was a problem with the stamps or the US custums... >:

I'm gonna send it AGAIN, but this time without candy and only papers... damnit :(

I've been listening a lot of Damien Rice and Mazzy Star. Nice starting for the year.

Hugs... :)