The Year That Was...

Well, from where do i start, the good things or the bad ones?... I think i'll start from anywhere.

This year has been strange in many ways. I lost a friend (no, he didn't died, but he kinda threw our friendship to the toilet 'cause i told him i was gay when i was drunk), he wasn't the same, he stop calling me and everything... blah, fuck him anyway. But i truely cared for him, he was my only male friend i liked.

This year i kept knowing and loving the friend's i knew in NF and in other places (Enrique from the PJ gig). Pieter rocked this year even more, i love the guy so much is not even funny, it's like my soulbrother, i wish i could hug him and tell him he rocks. Louise is a gal who rocked my world this year, she's so funny and talented and she let me be his friend (and he has a hot boyfriend... woooooooo!!!!). Yee stoped drinking until yesterday so, she's the year top drunkie... woooooooooooooooo!!!!!! :P I love ya dear!!!!. Jackie returned from England and she was nicer than ever, she's such a nice gal :) . Darren rocked too this year, he's one of those people you thank God for being in your life, he's just a perfect friend and a wonderful person... :)

The work sucked this year. Radar festival was a little difficult this year because of some bitches and bastards that made my work hell, but i lived through those weeks. I meat wonderful artist and people in there that made this year festival more fun and pleasent. Awesome!!!

The main event that happend this year in my life was seeing PJ Harvey live. My idol, the most amazing performer on the world and i got the chance to see her and to be near her. She sang to my for a few seconds and then smiled, that made my year better. :)

School is toped for another year again. I wish i could finish it and go on with my life.

Love sucked like always. Blah

Love you all my friend and people who read this bloggy... :)

Hugs, kisses and best wishes for next year... :)

Without You I'm Nothing

Strange infatuation seems to grace the evening tide
I'll take it by your side
Such imagination seems to help the feeling slide
I'll take it by your side
Instant correlation sucks and breeds a pack of lies
I'll take it by your side
Over saturation curls the skin and tans the hide
I'll take it by your side

Tick, tock
Tick, tock
Tick, tock
Tick, tick, tick, tick, tick, tock

I'm unclean a libertine
And every time you vent your spleen
I seem to lose the power of speech
You're slipping slowly from my reach
You grow me like an evergreen
You've never seen the lonely me at all

I...
Take the plan, spin it sideways
I...
Fall

Without you, I'm nothing
Without you, I'm nothing
Without you, I'm nothing
Take the plan, spin it sideways
Without you, I'm nothing at all

:'(

Tori Amos albums listed by Pieter

Little Bodquakes
Under The Bod
Bods For Pele
From The Bodgirl Hotel
To Venus & Bod
Strange Little Bods
Scarlet's Bod
Tales Of A Bodbrarian
The Bodkeeper

Woooooo!!!!!!!!!

This could be destiny, oh sweetheart

I've had no sense of time since we started this thing out
I've got friends in need, oh sweetheart
I've grown

lengths

and

lengths

and

lengths of love since we started this thing out

*more sigh*

Oh...

How i love you...
In the evening...
When we're sleeping...
We're sleeping...

*sigh*

Le Tigre

Rock serious ass on christmas time... WOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!

*shy*

A hug to everyone 'cause i feel alone and shitty... :'(

Best Of 2004 for this little bod... :'(

PJ Harvey : Uh Huh Her
Björk : Medulla
Ely Guerra : Sweet & Sour, Hot y Spicy
Neko Case : The Tigers Have Spoken
Interpol : Antics
Rilo Kiley : More Adventurous
TV on the Radio : Desperate Youth, Blood Thirsty Babes
Handsome Boy Modeling School : White People
Loretta Lynn : Van Lear Rose
Stina Nordenstam : The World Is Saved
Kelis : Tasty
Marianne Faithfull : Before The Poison
Franz Ferdinand : Franz Ferdinand
The Cure : The Cure
Blonde Redhead : Misery Is A Butterfly
Iron & Wine : Our Endless Numbered Days
The Streets : A Grand Don't Come for Free
Air : Talkie Walkie
Mark Lanegan's Band : Bubblegum

Special mention to: Muse / Absolution, but it's not in my list 'cause a bastard told me it was last year so... :'(

Wooooooo!!!!!! :)

Electric Light

I know that Louise hates me for some reason but...

The beauty of Lou, under electric light
The beauty of Lou, under electric light
Tears my heart out every time

Gus there waiting, right outside
Gus there waiting, right outside
She tears my heart out every time

Siren rising across the sky
Sirens rising across the sky
Tears my heart out every time

Woooooooooo... :'(

All I Want For Christmas Is...

Y
O
U


:)

Happy Birthday Yee-bert!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!

Many hugs and kisses to you my dear... :)

Love ya.

I just wanted to get this out of me head for a change...

Well, i've been kinda down lately, i dunno why. Maybe is christmas and we don't have any money, and when i say any money is that we're kinda living here with 2 dollars a day, eating tuna and drinking only milk for breakfast and dinner. So, maybe i'm kinda depressed about that.

But the thing that screw things up A LOT MORE and i dunno why it got me so fucking angry and mad is this: yesterday or the day before that i was checking the NF as usual, and when i see a thread that said "PJ Harvey poster for sale" i went nuts. While i was reading, i was excited 'cause maybe i could buy that and finally have a PJ poster, but hey, guess what? the poster was sold. But that was not what got me depressed and angry, it's because everyone knows in those forums i'm a big big fan of PJ, and guess what? no one said anything, except one of the person i know is my friend there and cares for me. And the seller person is what got me so angry, that person knows i wanted that poster and didn't care shit.

So, what i just say is this: what comes around, goes around... you f***** piece of lying s***.

Now... my soul rest in peace.

PS: I'm sorry for being to rude and all, but i had to do that... :/

Boom!!!

I just want the earth swallow me whole right now, my head hurts and my soul hurts... i wish i was someone else.

Cherry Blossom Girl

(Hope Sandoval Version)

I don't think to feel like being shy
Don't think i wanna stand here anymore
I just want to say 'Hi'
To the one I love
Tell my cherry blossom girl

This is true

I never talk to you
People say I should
I just wanna go out and go for it
Just wanna be sure be by my side
Tell my cherry blossom girl

This is true

This is true

This is true

Cold

It's fucking cold here nooooowwwwwww... BBBBRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR :'(

I think that's wrong with Sussie's leg (since i don't know what she has 'cause the vet didn't came today to check her) >: I think it's the cold air breeze that comes through my window and get's her and me when we're sleep. BBRRRRRRRRRR

I bought some cards and Lolly-pops for The Bods ... :O Hope that the bastards at the post office don't take them out of the envelope... :'(

COLD DAMNIT, COLD... BRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:P

This Weekend

Well, this weekend has been normal. I've been watching a lot of movies in LaserDisc and eating a lot of candy and stuff... i just finished all the dutch gummies that i had... :'(

Still listening to Interpol : Antics and loving every minute of it, i even started to like the first one and the last one that i hated.

I haven't been able to send the stuff that i have for the gang of the bods 'cause i don't have much money. Sussie's leg was kinda weird and i'm gonna take her to the vet tomorrow so he can check her out. And the vet is expensive and i'm gonna be broke after that... :'(

Hope by the end of the week that i have some money saved... :)

Lot's hugs... :*

Movies Pieter loves...

A Bodwork Orange
Short Bods
Taxi Bodver
Raging Bod
Harold & Bod
Wild Bodsberries
The Last Temptation Of Bod
Naked Bodnch

:D

Perfect Day

This song was amazing until they used it on Trainspotting and became famous, now this has become the most famous Lou Reed song out there... DAMNIT!!!

My mom told me a long time ago, that she listened to Transformer every day when she was pregnant with me, that's why i love that cd so much i guess... :)

It was so perfect... and now L is gonna call me Indie Bod again... :'( :P

Perfect Day

Just a perfect day
drink Sangria in the park
And then later
when it gets dark, we go home

Just a perfect day
feed animals in the zoo
Then later
a movie, too, and then home

Oh, it's such a perfect day
I'm glad I spend it with you
Oh, such a perfect day
You just keep me hanging on
You just keep me hanging on

Just a perfect day
problems all left alone
Weekenders on our own
it's such fun

Just a perfect day
you made me forget myself
I thought I was
someone else, someone good

Oh, it's such a perfect day
I'm glad I spent it with you
Oh, such a perfect day
You just keep me hanging on
You just keep me hanging on

You're going to reap just what you sow


*Dedication for the Bod, 'cause i'm worried about him... :'( *

LOVE YA BOD!!!!!!! Cheer up a bit bro... :)

Love ya all too... :*

Sleepless

I dreamt about how happy we might have been.
The things you might have said if i haven't go through the door.
The sweet kiss you might have given me if i held your hand a little longer.
The touch of your silky white skin against mine.
The feeling of your golden hair resting in my shoulder.

We might have been happy together... maybe.

ILYSFM.

The End.

oohh!!!!

and i forgot...

i got a call from a very important someone in my life yesterday, but i kinda blocked it though... hehe!

*shy*

Ha!

I was invited yesterday by a friend of my sister and i to a magazine presentation in a museum. So, like my sister has her foot all fucked she can't go and her friend told her that if we can go that i had to go alone or with friends. I told Danaé if she can join me and she told me "yeah! sure, when my dad gets home, i'll ask him for permission to go but yeah, let's go".

It's 9 pm and no sight of Danaé. If she didn't wanted to go, she can just tell me, that way i can tell someone else to go with me and period. But no, i'm fucking waiting for her to call and the thing was at 7:30pm. I "think" i might not go... >:

Anyway... wooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!

Louise proposed marriage to me this afternoon but i dunno if i want to marry her for her of for the advantage i can marry my dear friend WITH THE PLUS of a hot bod she has at home... wooooooooo!!!!!!!! :P

Love ya all!!!!!!! :)

97

It's already done
I'm down on my knees
Look what you done
You've made a fool out of me

It's already too late
You've given me the taste

Look what you've done
There's no turning 'round
I forget today
I couldn't turn it down

It's all in the details
No reason, just face

You'd better give me some
Of that magic stuff
It's all in the thought
I'm burning up
I'm burning up
It's 97 degrees
Look what you've done
You've ruined everything

You better hurry up
With that magic stuff
It's all your fault
I can't get enough

Note to Louise if she reads this: IT'S NOT MINE, IT'S PJ's. :P ;)

Be Kind To Me Or Treat Me Mean, I'll Make The Most Of It I'm An Extraordinary Machine

Damnit... i'm so fucking angry. Free Fiona Apple's new cd you capitalist bastards, she is an artist not a money maker machine.

Wooooooooooooo!!!!!!

Love you guys... :)

:'(

This weekend kinda rule. I watched movies with my sisters and i ate a lot of candy and trash food... woooooooooooooo!!!

Saturday and sunday i were in high school again making exams to pump my grades a little more 'cause i don't have anything to do at the moment... :P

P hasn't answered me in two days and i'm worried... he doesn't love me anymore :'(

Love and have a great week... :)

Piano Fire

A girl was sitting in the bus stop waiting for something to happen, maybe she's waiting for a taxi or for the love of her life. I dunno why she is wearing a wedding dress, maybe she just felt like wearing one.

I came up to her and ask her for the time. "It's ten thirthy" she said. I waited for my bus in the seat right next to her. She didn't seem to be in a hurry to get somewhere, she was just there. I turned my face towards her in 30 seconds pauses maybe, just to see her eyes, to watch what she was looking at. I was there like half an hour and she didn't move. I got really intrigued by the way she just sat there with her sight in front. Then she suddenly smiled, she smiled in a very lovely way, like she was happy all of the sudden.

When my eyes turned to see what she was looking at, i saw a ballroom, people yelling and clapping, they all seemed very happy. After a few minutes, a married couple came out, holding hands and smiling.

The girl looked happy, her eyes were trembling, her palms over the chest. She stood from a sudden jump to the edge of the sidewalk with her eyes fixed in the car, the car that was taking the couple to their honeymoon or i dunno what. She sat back at the bus stop. The look of her eyes were lost, kind if an empty look.

I grabed the courage to ask her for the time again. "It's 11 o'clock" she said, "thank you very much" i replaid. "It seems like i've been stood up" -i said- "would you like to go for a cup of coffee?". "Ok" -she said- "but i have to change". "Why for?, you look lovely in that dress". She smiled and said... "ok"

"What's your name" i asked
"My name is Sarah..." and smiled again looking at the ballroom place.

I Can't Seem To Breathe With A Rusted Metal Heart..

I hope this is the last time i have to write about you.

I love you, i loved you and i can't seem to get over you. What happend with us was not real, but it was magical, it had something so powerfull that nor you and not i can explain. It was simple magic. I know that it will never happen again, it was a one an only experience in this life. I hope in another life we can be together and happy, holding our hands while walking below the moonlighted street.

I hope i can move on... i have to. Just give me a little more time...

Blah

Shitty mood, shitty day.

Never tell anyone how much you like to meet them and stuff, 'cause that might won't be ok with the other person. Hope we can meet each other perfectly in another time or in another life.

Listening to.... Mazzy Star : I've Been Let Down

Runnin' Out Of Thoughts...

Well, another week has gone and nothing interesting to tell again. I'm saving to buy the new Interpol and to buy my sister Isadora her birthday gift (a ticket to Franz Ferdinand) wooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!

This week i've been doing a lot of thinking in my next story to film, something small and kinda experimental, but in the same vein as my previous short film, of love and faith and destiny and all that stuff i'm interested in... but i can't figure out how to get it complete.

I'm sure i'm gonna use this song, i just know it. This song itself is a movie... :)

are you sure you got the right number
is it me you wanna talk to tonight
everyone in town's got your number
everybody's got you pegged right
is that why you got in touch with me
ohhh, guess you must be runnin' out of fools

you left me all alone right here
your goodbye was even colder than last
didn't bother you I was cryin'
now you wanna break my heart twice
is that why you got in touch with me
ohhh, guess you must be runnin' out of fools
you got back to my name in your little black book
tell you what I guess you forgot how I even look (yes you did)

so go ahead with all your sweet talkin'
go ahead for all the good it can do
have yourself a dime's worth of talkin'
then I'm gonna hang right up on you

'cause this time you're not getting through to me
ohhh, guess you must be runnin' out of fools
even fools like me (fools like me)
even fools like me
runnin' out of fools (fools like me)
even fools like me (fools like me)

Hugs to all and have a great week... woooooooo!!!!!!!! :*

There Will Never Be A Better Time

You stood up to the window to light a cigarette, you looked me from there, laying down on the bed with my head on your pillow, looked me like you had something to say, and then you asked "do you love the light that comes in from the street?" and i said "yes, sure... but i love the way your presence lights up the room better".

You said "do you think that life is all about this moments? these fragments of time?" and i wondered, i kept thinking about it for about 5 minutes more until you came on to bed again, unfolded the sheets and you let that warm body enter my soul again. You looked for my legs and made a chain with them, with yours and mine, my arms were around your chest while my head rested on your shoulder. Your hands were in my hips and your feet colder than ever touching mine.

After then minutes i had the answer to his question. I looked up to you, put my lips to your ears and said: "There Will Never Be A Better Time"

Deep Red Bells

Today i found out how i seriously love Neko Case. She writes in a way that strikes your emotional core without being so candyish and sweetly, she says what's on her mind and that somehow is the best way to enter one's heart.

I want a job,
i want a life,
i want a stereo that plays cd's correctly,
i want to read a good book,
i want to love someone,
i want to be loved,
i want to hug Pieter,
i want to hug Louise,
i want to touch foreign grass,
breath freezing cold air,
i want to say "i love you" to the people i care about...

Love...

Da Bod

Woooooooooooooooooooooo!
Woooooooooooooooooooooo!
Woooooooooooooooooooooo!

I just talked to P (a.k.a. Da Bod) and it was funny... he rocks!. After one and half year that i know him and of being my friend, just now i had the strenght to talk to him and not get under the table like the last time... :'(

The only bad thing was me and my voice... ugh, i hate it! :(

Woooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!

Another day...

What can i say today? This is all Pieter's fault 'cause he's bloggy rocks and i wanted one like him or Louise's... :'(

I woke up today feeling empty inside, like i haven't done anything relevant in my life. My school plans are stoped at the moment, i can't find a stupid job and my friends are too far away from me.

I've been listening to my Neko Case cd's these days like crazy and i've been drawing and writing stuff to send to my friends... :)

Love ya guys...

You...

We are waiting
For the summer
The sun will bring back
Treasures for us

Come on my friend
Drink to good times
Golden wishes
To your health and mine

You come through
For me
You come true
For me
You be well
For me
You come through
For me

I'll be lifted
On this our holiday
I'll take you my friend
I'll take you with me

You come through
For me
You come true
For me
You be well
For me
You come through
For me

Desired Constellation

It's tricky when
you feel someone
has done
something on your behalf

It's slippery when
your sense of justice
murmurs underneath
And is asking you:
How am I going to make it right?
How am I going to make it right?

With a palm full of stars
I throw them like dice
(repeatedly)
On the table
(repeat - repeatedly)
I shake them like dice
and throw them on the table
repeatedly(repeatedly)
until the desired constellation appears

How am I going to make it right?
How am I going to make it right?
How am I going to make it right?

(And you hear: how am I going to make it right?)

How am I going to make it right?
How am I going to make it right?

(How am I going to make it right?)

Worried

Yo, first real post after the welcome "woooooooo!!!"

The week has been shit like always, not having my mom around 'cause she's watching over my granma who had surgery a couple of weeks ago. I had to do everything in the house (cooking, cleaning, washing dishes, etc) and i'm full of it, i want to explote... :

And now it's sunday night and i'm worried as shit for a dear friend of mine, i dunno what to do sometimes to chear him up a bit, i wish i know a way to make him feel better. I love ya bro... :'(

Love...

Bods And Arrows

wooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!