Song For Eric

i wait all day for my sailor and sometimes he comes

see you over hill and dale
riding on the wind i see
you know me, you know me like the nightingale
"oh fair maiden, i see you standing there"
will you hold me for just a fair time
the tune is playing in the fair night
i see you in my dreams
fair boy your eyes haunt me...

L and Bod... what do you think of this song for my short film? *shy*

Job

Woooooooo!!!!!

Well, i'm working on Radar Festival again and i'm again in charge of the workshops which is kinda nice. It's 2 workshops and 2 conferences that i'm handling and i think it's gonna be a piece of cake... :)

And the plus of seeing Fantômas for free... wooooooo!!!!!!!!!! :D

Love ya all... :*

<3

Though dreams can be deceiving
Like faces are to hearts
They serve for sweet relieving
When fantasy and reality
lie too far apart

So I stretch myself across like a bridge
And I pull you to the edge
And stand there waiting
Trying to attain
The end to satisfy the story
Shall I release you?
Must I release you?
As I rise to meet my glory

But my big secret
Gonna hover over your life
Gonna keep you reaching
When I'm gone like yesterday
When I'm high like heaven
When I'm strong like music
'Cause I'm slow like honey, and heavy with mood

Fucking Go!!!

'Cause i've done what i could for you
And i do know what's good for me

YOU HEARD ME MOTHERFUCKERS!!!!!!!!!

Helvetes Jävla Skit

Do you have a problem with that? *angryface*

:D

Yes... it's true

I like Shakira very much. Some of her songs are very beautiful and make me cry a lot... :'(

Do anyone have a problem with that...? UUUHHH????

:D

Sick

Woooooooooo!!!!

I have the most awesome cold in the world!!!

But... why awesome? Because my dad is forcing me to go with him and assist him on a horrible TV program that he's working on with a guy i don't like AT ALL. And with this cold, i'm able to stay at home for the time being... wooooooo!!!!!

:D

Movies for free...

Wooooooooo!!!!!!

I went to the FICCO goodbye dinner last night and i got an acknowledgement. :P

It was a letter with two tickets to go to a movie for free, only two, and i told Maddy that fucking CINEMEX is gonna go bankrupt because of those two tickets. She laughed and told me to read the letter. I did and i got a one year card to go to the movies for free... :)

Awesome!!!

:)

After Hours

I'm gonna use this song in my short film... :)

One, two, three
If you close the door
the night could last forever
Leave the sunshine out
and say hello to never

All the people are dancing
and they're having such fun
I wish it could happen to me+

But if you close the door
I'd never have to see the day again

If you close the door
the night could last forever
Leave the wine-glass out
and drink a toast to never

Oh, someday I know
someone will look into my eyes
And say hello
you're my very special one

But if you close the door
I'd never have to see the day again

Dark party bars, shiny Cadillac cars
and the people on subways and trains
Looking gray in the rain, as they stand disarrayed
oh, but people look well in the dark

And if you close the door
the night could last forever
Leave the sunshine out
and say hello to never

All the people are dancing
and they're having such fun
I wish it could happen to me

Cause if you close the door
I'd never have to see the day again
I'd never have to see the day again, once more
I'd never have to see the day again

Nice not? :)

Favorite Actresses IV

Liv Ullman



This woman is amazing. Her presence on screen is simply breathtaking. When she deliver the words of people like Ingmar Bergman and with flawless taste and precise attitute and feeling, you know she's one of the best this world of cinema could have.

Favorite Films:

Autumn Sonata from Ingmar Bergman
Cries And Whispers from Ingmar Bergman
Persona from Ingmar Bergman
The Emigrants from Jan Troell
Scenes From A Marriage from Ingmar Bergman
Gaby from Luis Mandoki
Saraband from Ingmar Bergman

Thinking

I read this afternoon about a contest of short films sponsored by Amazon and Tribeca Film Festival and looks kinda nice.

The trouble is that i have to find a story to film in the next couple of weeks and edited and send it... wooooo!!!!!!

Ideas and help writing the screenplay... at my email ;)

Lots of love...

Oh...

And Pieter "Bodberto" de Jager hates me and has a new best friend... wtf? :'(

((((((Louise)))))))

:'(

And...

I've been down and depressed all day long damnit, i can't take it anymore. I'm becoming a wussie even for being depressed.

Today was the press conference of RADAR, pretty interesting. Fantomas is coming... woooooo!!!! José didn't told me anything related to work, so that kinda got me more down 'cause i really thought i was going to work again in the festival. Blah.

I miss the FICCO festival. Hope this year passes fast so i can work again in that place... :)

It's you... definitely

I dunno why this always happens to me in the least expected moments of my life. I just can't understand it. I wish i could be someone else just to make this life be perfect and magical.

"All I want to do
And all I want to grow up to be
Is all caught up with you
Look what you're doing to me"

*sigh*

I'm free again... :)

Well, i'm done with the festival and i can only say i'm very happy.

I saw wonderful film, I knew amazing people, i got to experience work of my own and i got the chance to grow a bit as a person.

And i can only say that all of my life i've known that i wanted to make films, or see films, or write about films or be around films... and i just happened to enforce that dream and wish more and more to become true.

Woooooooooot!!!!!!

Today is the closing screening of the festival and i'm very very VERY happy that it's ending because i'm tired as shit. This week has been so great and so hectic that i can't hardly believe it's been so damn fast.

On monday i meet a wonderful guy called Javier Porta Fouz, the editor in cheif of (what i believe) is the most important film publication in Argentina called "EL AMANTE" (The Lover). This guy is AWESOME, super nice, super inteligent and most of all, we have similar taste on films.

I've been coordinating special screenings for universities and high schools and all went pretty well, two of them supervised only by me which makes me proud. :P

Yesterday Javier invited me to go to the "Lucha Libre" and was pretty fun. We refused to go see Emir Kusturica's concert from hell. I had a super nice time with him. I really did.

I've missed you all and a i hope you guys still love me :'(

:*

Palindromes

AWESOME FILM, AWESOME!!!!!!!

It's the new film by Todd Solondz and it's about a 12 year old girl who wants to get pregnant at any cost. She wants to bring a baby to the world because she loves babies and wants one for her to look out for.

The film is just wonderful, because Solondz tells this story (bittersweet as he only can be) through the life of this girl, but the girl is played by 7 or 8 different actresses of different races and ages, making this film kinda unique and universal. Simply awesome.

And the music is made by Nathan Larson and some songs are sunged by Nina Persson.

:)

Favorite Actresses III

Jeanne Moreau



I think she's the best fucking actress in the world godverdomme!!!!!

AND I DON'T NEED TO SAY WHY BECAUSE SHE JUST IS!!!!

The best best best best!!!!!!

Best films:

La Notte from Michelangelo Antonioni
Jules And Jim from Francois Truffaut
Les Amants from Louis Malle
Diary Of A Chambermaid from Luis Buñuel
Les Liaisons Dangereuses de Roger Vadim
The Trail from Orson Welles
Querelle from Rainer Werner Fassbinder
The Trout from Joseph Losey

and as a narrator: The Lover from Jean Jacques Annaud.

:)

Scared

I'm writing this post because i'm scared of The Bod... *fear*

He threaten me today by saying i had to update my bloggy so i'm doing it... *fear*

Woooooo!!!!!!

How's everyone doing? *shy*

I've been busy with the festival and all that shit so i haven't been updating the bloggy a lot. I haven't been able to do anything actually... :P

But i love you all dearly... :'(

Pffff

I'm tired as shit.

Work stuff has been very very heavy and it's only STARTING... :'(

I miss The Bods, we need to rehears to go play at Coachella... :D

Kisses to all... :*

"Favorite Actresses" 2

Michelle Pfeiffer



American. I love her fragility when she's in one of her characters, her vulnerability in her face, in her mouth. Flawless use of body lenguage (example. Ellen Olenska in The Age Of Innocence).

Favorite Pfeiffer films:

"The Age Of Innocence" from Martin Scorsese
"Dangerous Liaisons" from Stephen Frears
"Batman Returns" from Tim Burton
"The Witches of Eastwick" from George Miller
"The Fabulous Baker Boys" from Steven Kloves
"Ladyhawke" from Richard Donner
"Frankie and Johnny" from Garry Marshall
"Love Field" from Jonathan Kaplan

My favorite Pornstar

:D

Favorite Actresses

Like the bod has his "Albums Ai Laik" series, i'm having my own series but of my favorite actresses.

Isabelle Adjani



Beautiful and amazing lady. I love the way she performs. When she's acting, you can tell all that the character is thinking in her eyes. Awesome!!!

My favorite Adjani film:

"Possession" from Andrzej Zulawski
"Camille Claudel" from Bruno Nuytten
"The Story of Adele H" from Francois Truffaut
"Nosferatu: The Vampyre" from Werner Herzog
"The Tenant" from Roman Polanski
"Queen Margot" from Patrice Chéreau

Wooooooooooo!!!!!!!

Gilda

An awesome movie poster, i think one of the best in film history... *geek hidden*



Woooooooo!!!!!

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory

WTF?

I just saw the trailer of the new Tim Burton film, which is the remake of "Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory" and the trailer looks WEIRD AS SHIT!!! :O

I mean, looks freaky. And not like "Tim Burton" freaky, but REAL FREAKY... :O

I'm scared... *shy*

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0367594/

1.2.3.4.5....

Sometimes is really hard to figure out why you act like you do. I dunno why, but lately i've been weird in general. I feel like my brain and my body are different things.

I'm running out of friends. Soon all my real friends would go away and i'll be the only one who stays here doing nothing of his life.

<3

I know I'm alone if I'm with or without you
but just bein' around you offers me another form of relief
When the lonliness leads to bad dreams
and the bad dreams lead me to callin' you
and I call you and say "C'MERE!"

<3

Rest Of My Life

there are worse ways for a guy to spend his time
than to sit and think of you
i think i'd marry you
just your smile
leaves me satisfied
though you're not mine

so for the rest of my life
i'm gonna search for someone just like you

and we tend the garden all day long
watching history unfold
and i'd be enough
and you'd be enough
and we'd grow old

so for the rest of my life
i'm gonna search for someone just like you

for the rest of my life
i'm gonna search for someone just like you

yeah, for the rest of my life
i'm gonna search for someone just like you

Love Despite Of Great Faults

You will move
With me we will
Stay still and
Words will move around us.
Surround us in gold
And in our world
We will be
Silent.

You will swim
To me we will
Be free
And words will move around us
Swim around us
Surround us in schools
And in our cool
We'll be reminded.

That you refuse to fade away
I hide to stay the same
Where do we go from here
I don't know.

For me you flower to be chosen
I fall down to be noticed
Where do we go from here i don't know.

It was a time
A way of life
The only secrets
We talked about
Were all the fears
In all these years
We spent together

I forgot...

Pieter hates me :(

Louise hates me :(

and i dunno why... :(

Things

Well, nothing much to tell really.

I've been working on the festival and stuff. Not much good things to do yet. I haven't told Maddy about the money 'cause i haven't been much in the office anyway. :P

She told me that the festival guys are gonna give travel money and stuff so... wooooo!!!! ;)

Ohhh!!! And i got another job in abril. An art festival, one of the most important and influential and i'm gonna be a translator for artist... WOOOO!!!!! I'm really excited about that one. And this one i am gonna get payed... WOOOOO WOOOOOO WOOOOOO!!!!!!!

Listening a lot to Rilo Kiley : More Adventurous 'cause it's simply gorgeus.

:*

Mmmm

These past few days were kinda boring, kinda the same as usual.

I have to go work only monday's and wednesdays from 11am to 1pm and it is going to be a drag. I'm seriously thinking in telling Maddy that i have "another" job offer or something because of the paying insident.

I've been to Yessica almost all week in her search for job interviews and all and it has been fun hanging all day with her, she makes me laugh so hard. :)

I've missed the bods so much it's not even funny... :'(

I LOVE YOU GUYS AND I MISS YOU SO MUCH... :'(

*hugs*

Past days events

This was my week so far.

Monday i went to work all excited and stuff, left here at 9 and got there at 11 sharp. I waited and went up the office i'm gonna work in. Maddy, my "boss" was not there yet, so i decided to go outside the cinema to have a smoke. I waited and waited for half an hour and i didn't see her arrive.

While i was waiting for her, i say a guy walking around and he seemed kinda ansious and nervous, so i was kinda focusing on him 'cause i didn't had nothing to do. Suddenly, a girl came from the door my office is in and walked across the cinema to him. She said hello and all and sat at the table right next to me. They started to talk and blah blah, you know, boring stuff. But then she said this: "Well, lemme tell you about the money. We as coordinators of these areas we have the permission to get 2 asistents with 400 dollars each, i know is quite shitty, but it's money anyway". Right there i was like.... WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!

Maddy told me she didn't had any money to offer me and shit, but after i heard that girl talking about the money, i was in shock and very pissed. And then Maddy arrived and apologysing and stuff. I didn't say anything 'cause i'm a wimp and a wussie and went along with everything. But guess what? she didn't had anything to put me to work, she can handle everything herself. Weird not? K, then, 'cause she had nothing to put me to do, she sent me to deliver some stuff and blah blah blah like a fucking office boy and shit... ARRRGGHHHH... i was so pissed!!! >:

Anyway, you can guess that i'm having a horrible time and i don't want to go there anymore and i'm seriously thinking in not going. But the Peter Greenaway films premiers and the Sally Potter talks don't let me get out.... WHAT THE FUCK SHOULD I DO??????

I wanna cry... :'(

Love ya all and miss ya lots... :(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BODBERTO!!!!!

Love ya bod and i hope you have a wonderfull time... :)

Don't drink much and don't have to much sex... k? :'(

:)

Like you say... "Gifts Will Follow" ;)

:* x 10000000000000

*hug*

I Never

I'm only a woman
of flesh and bone
an i wept much
we all do
i thought i might die alone

but i have
never never never
never never never
never never never
never never met you
so baby be good to me

i got nothing to give you
you see
except
everything everything
everything everything
all the good and the bad
'cause i've been bad
i've lied, cheated, stolen and
been ungrateful for what i had

and i'm afraid habits rule my waking life
i'm scared and i'm runnin' in my sleep
for you
but all the oceans, and rivers and showers
will wash it all away and make me clean for you

'cause i have
never never never
never never never
never never never
never never met you

so lets take a loan out
put it down on a house
in a place we've never lived
in a place that exists
in the pages of scripts
and the songs that they sing
and all of the beautiful things
that make you weep but
don't have to make you weak

'cause i've
never never never never
never never never never
never never never never
never never never never
never never never never
never never never never
never never never never
loved someone the way
that i loved you

awesome!!!!!!!

:'(

Well...

I got the job... woooooooo!!!!

The only thing about it is as a voluntear... HAHAHAH!!!!

I won't earn any money, but i'm gonna help out in the workshops and open air film presentations... :)

Emir Kusturika, Sally Potter, Buck Henry and Todd Solondz are coming and i'm gonna be able to see them all for free so... WOOOOO!!!!!

Not so bad not? *shy*

Love ya all... :)

Primed & Ticking

I believe I fell from above
Primed and ticking for your love
I believe I could rub you right
Hang and dollar you day and night
I believe I could stretch your hopes
Widely as his mercy flows
Come on baby, give me your time
I've seen it in the stars, you're mine
I believe my days will end with you
It's you

I'm so young and I'm so strong
Get my blood up when I'm gone
Nothing, baby, is too big for me
Take it from his company
I could take you to heaven's highs
Trust me baby, I'll rub you right
I don't eat, I don't need to sleep
Fire and desire's good enough for me
I believe my days will end with you
It's you

I think I'm ticking
I think I'm ticking
I'm primed and ticking
I think I'm ticking

I believe my days will end with you
It's you

I believe my days will end with you

You look at me like I shot your dog
Venus, me, I'm the god of love
Don't you turn your back, beauty queen
Remember how I wiped you clean
I could stretch your wildest hopes
As widely as his mercy flows
You gorgeous stack of pancakes, you
You're going nowhere till I'm through
I believe my days will end with you
It's you

I believe my lonesome days are through
It's you

I think I'm ticking
I think I'm ticking
I'm primed and ticking
I think I'm ticking

I believe my days will end with you

There's still hope...

Wooooooooooooooo!!!!!!

I have a job interview monday afternoon to work in a film festival in february... wooooooo!!!!

Cross fingers all you bods for good luck... k? :D

Love ya all... :)

New Days

This past couple of days of the new year hasn't been all shitty. Last weekend i went with my friend Danaé and her cousin Jessica to my house in Oaxtepec to drink and have fun, which we all did (taking the incident were Danaé threw up in my dad's plants :P). Jessica and i had a nice talk over the days and it was great, real fun, i enjoyed it.

I've got back the package i sent to L AAAGGGAAAIIIIINNNNN with a little note that said "please don't send candy again, it has another value" AAAARRRGGGGGHHHHHHHH. I was so pissed i called to the post office for the first time and ask why my packages had return so many fucking times and the guy said he didn't knew, that it was a problem with the stamps or the US custums... >:

I'm gonna send it AGAIN, but this time without candy and only papers... damnit :(

I've been listening a lot of Damien Rice and Mazzy Star. Nice starting for the year.

Hugs... :)

The Year That Was...

Well, from where do i start, the good things or the bad ones?... I think i'll start from anywhere.

This year has been strange in many ways. I lost a friend (no, he didn't died, but he kinda threw our friendship to the toilet 'cause i told him i was gay when i was drunk), he wasn't the same, he stop calling me and everything... blah, fuck him anyway. But i truely cared for him, he was my only male friend i liked.

This year i kept knowing and loving the friend's i knew in NF and in other places (Enrique from the PJ gig). Pieter rocked this year even more, i love the guy so much is not even funny, it's like my soulbrother, i wish i could hug him and tell him he rocks. Louise is a gal who rocked my world this year, she's so funny and talented and she let me be his friend (and he has a hot boyfriend... woooooooo!!!!). Yee stoped drinking until yesterday so, she's the year top drunkie... woooooooooooooooo!!!!!! :P I love ya dear!!!!. Jackie returned from England and she was nicer than ever, she's such a nice gal :) . Darren rocked too this year, he's one of those people you thank God for being in your life, he's just a perfect friend and a wonderful person... :)

The work sucked this year. Radar festival was a little difficult this year because of some bitches and bastards that made my work hell, but i lived through those weeks. I meat wonderful artist and people in there that made this year festival more fun and pleasent. Awesome!!!

The main event that happend this year in my life was seeing PJ Harvey live. My idol, the most amazing performer on the world and i got the chance to see her and to be near her. She sang to my for a few seconds and then smiled, that made my year better. :)

School is toped for another year again. I wish i could finish it and go on with my life.

Love sucked like always. Blah

Love you all my friend and people who read this bloggy... :)

Hugs, kisses and best wishes for next year... :)

Without You I'm Nothing

Strange infatuation seems to grace the evening tide
I'll take it by your side
Such imagination seems to help the feeling slide
I'll take it by your side
Instant correlation sucks and breeds a pack of lies
I'll take it by your side
Over saturation curls the skin and tans the hide
I'll take it by your side

Tick, tock
Tick, tock
Tick, tock
Tick, tick, tick, tick, tick, tock

I'm unclean a libertine
And every time you vent your spleen
I seem to lose the power of speech
You're slipping slowly from my reach
You grow me like an evergreen
You've never seen the lonely me at all

I...
Take the plan, spin it sideways
I...
Fall

Without you, I'm nothing
Without you, I'm nothing
Without you, I'm nothing
Take the plan, spin it sideways
Without you, I'm nothing at all

:'(

Tori Amos albums listed by Pieter

Little Bodquakes
Under The Bod
Bods For Pele
From The Bodgirl Hotel
To Venus & Bod
Strange Little Bods
Scarlet's Bod
Tales Of A Bodbrarian
The Bodkeeper

Woooooo!!!!!!!!!

This could be destiny, oh sweetheart

I've had no sense of time since we started this thing out
I've got friends in need, oh sweetheart
I've grown

lengths

and

lengths

and

lengths of love since we started this thing out

*more sigh*

Oh...

How i love you...
In the evening...
When we're sleeping...
We're sleeping...

*sigh*

Le Tigre

Rock serious ass on christmas time... WOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!

*shy*

A hug to everyone 'cause i feel alone and shitty... :'(

Best Of 2004 for this little bod... :'(

PJ Harvey : Uh Huh Her
Björk : Medulla
Ely Guerra : Sweet & Sour, Hot y Spicy
Neko Case : The Tigers Have Spoken
Interpol : Antics
Rilo Kiley : More Adventurous
TV on the Radio : Desperate Youth, Blood Thirsty Babes
Handsome Boy Modeling School : White People
Loretta Lynn : Van Lear Rose
Stina Nordenstam : The World Is Saved
Kelis : Tasty
Marianne Faithfull : Before The Poison
Franz Ferdinand : Franz Ferdinand
The Cure : The Cure
Blonde Redhead : Misery Is A Butterfly
Iron & Wine : Our Endless Numbered Days
The Streets : A Grand Don't Come for Free
Air : Talkie Walkie
Mark Lanegan's Band : Bubblegum

Special mention to: Muse / Absolution, but it's not in my list 'cause a bastard told me it was last year so... :'(

Wooooooo!!!!!! :)

Electric Light

I know that Louise hates me for some reason but...

The beauty of Lou, under electric light
The beauty of Lou, under electric light
Tears my heart out every time

Gus there waiting, right outside
Gus there waiting, right outside
She tears my heart out every time

Siren rising across the sky
Sirens rising across the sky
Tears my heart out every time

Woooooooooo... :'(

All I Want For Christmas Is...

Y
O
U


:)

Happy Birthday Yee-bert!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!

Many hugs and kisses to you my dear... :)

Love ya.

I just wanted to get this out of me head for a change...

Well, i've been kinda down lately, i dunno why. Maybe is christmas and we don't have any money, and when i say any money is that we're kinda living here with 2 dollars a day, eating tuna and drinking only milk for breakfast and dinner. So, maybe i'm kinda depressed about that.

But the thing that screw things up A LOT MORE and i dunno why it got me so fucking angry and mad is this: yesterday or the day before that i was checking the NF as usual, and when i see a thread that said "PJ Harvey poster for sale" i went nuts. While i was reading, i was excited 'cause maybe i could buy that and finally have a PJ poster, but hey, guess what? the poster was sold. But that was not what got me depressed and angry, it's because everyone knows in those forums i'm a big big fan of PJ, and guess what? no one said anything, except one of the person i know is my friend there and cares for me. And the seller person is what got me so angry, that person knows i wanted that poster and didn't care shit.

So, what i just say is this: what comes around, goes around... you f***** piece of lying s***.

Now... my soul rest in peace.

PS: I'm sorry for being to rude and all, but i had to do that... :/

Boom!!!

I just want the earth swallow me whole right now, my head hurts and my soul hurts... i wish i was someone else.

Cherry Blossom Girl

(Hope Sandoval Version)

I don't think to feel like being shy
Don't think i wanna stand here anymore
I just want to say 'Hi'
To the one I love
Tell my cherry blossom girl

This is true

I never talk to you
People say I should
I just wanna go out and go for it
Just wanna be sure be by my side
Tell my cherry blossom girl

This is true

This is true

This is true

Cold

It's fucking cold here nooooowwwwwww... BBBBRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR :'(

I think that's wrong with Sussie's leg (since i don't know what she has 'cause the vet didn't came today to check her) >: I think it's the cold air breeze that comes through my window and get's her and me when we're sleep. BBRRRRRRRRRR

I bought some cards and Lolly-pops for The Bods ... :O Hope that the bastards at the post office don't take them out of the envelope... :'(

COLD DAMNIT, COLD... BRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:P

This Weekend

Well, this weekend has been normal. I've been watching a lot of movies in LaserDisc and eating a lot of candy and stuff... i just finished all the dutch gummies that i had... :'(

Still listening to Interpol : Antics and loving every minute of it, i even started to like the first one and the last one that i hated.

I haven't been able to send the stuff that i have for the gang of the bods 'cause i don't have much money. Sussie's leg was kinda weird and i'm gonna take her to the vet tomorrow so he can check her out. And the vet is expensive and i'm gonna be broke after that... :'(

Hope by the end of the week that i have some money saved... :)

Lot's hugs... :*

Movies Pieter loves...

A Bodwork Orange
Short Bods
Taxi Bodver
Raging Bod
Harold & Bod
Wild Bodsberries
The Last Temptation Of Bod
Naked Bodnch

:D

Perfect Day

This song was amazing until they used it on Trainspotting and became famous, now this has become the most famous Lou Reed song out there... DAMNIT!!!

My mom told me a long time ago, that she listened to Transformer every day when she was pregnant with me, that's why i love that cd so much i guess... :)

It was so perfect... and now L is gonna call me Indie Bod again... :'( :P

Perfect Day

Just a perfect day
drink Sangria in the park
And then later
when it gets dark, we go home

Just a perfect day
feed animals in the zoo
Then later
a movie, too, and then home

Oh, it's such a perfect day
I'm glad I spend it with you
Oh, such a perfect day
You just keep me hanging on
You just keep me hanging on

Just a perfect day
problems all left alone
Weekenders on our own
it's such fun

Just a perfect day
you made me forget myself
I thought I was
someone else, someone good

Oh, it's such a perfect day
I'm glad I spent it with you
Oh, such a perfect day
You just keep me hanging on
You just keep me hanging on

You're going to reap just what you sow


*Dedication for the Bod, 'cause i'm worried about him... :'( *

LOVE YA BOD!!!!!!! Cheer up a bit bro... :)

Love ya all too... :*

Sleepless

I dreamt about how happy we might have been.
The things you might have said if i haven't go through the door.
The sweet kiss you might have given me if i held your hand a little longer.
The touch of your silky white skin against mine.
The feeling of your golden hair resting in my shoulder.

We might have been happy together... maybe.

ILYSFM.

The End.

oohh!!!!

and i forgot...

i got a call from a very important someone in my life yesterday, but i kinda blocked it though... hehe!

*shy*

Ha!

I was invited yesterday by a friend of my sister and i to a magazine presentation in a museum. So, like my sister has her foot all fucked she can't go and her friend told her that if we can go that i had to go alone or with friends. I told Danaé if she can join me and she told me "yeah! sure, when my dad gets home, i'll ask him for permission to go but yeah, let's go".

It's 9 pm and no sight of Danaé. If she didn't wanted to go, she can just tell me, that way i can tell someone else to go with me and period. But no, i'm fucking waiting for her to call and the thing was at 7:30pm. I "think" i might not go... >:

Anyway... wooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!

Louise proposed marriage to me this afternoon but i dunno if i want to marry her for her of for the advantage i can marry my dear friend WITH THE PLUS of a hot bod she has at home... wooooooooo!!!!!!!! :P

Love ya all!!!!!!! :)

97

It's already done
I'm down on my knees
Look what you done
You've made a fool out of me

It's already too late
You've given me the taste

Look what you've done
There's no turning 'round
I forget today
I couldn't turn it down

It's all in the details
No reason, just face

You'd better give me some
Of that magic stuff
It's all in the thought
I'm burning up
I'm burning up
It's 97 degrees
Look what you've done
You've ruined everything

You better hurry up
With that magic stuff
It's all your fault
I can't get enough

Note to Louise if she reads this: IT'S NOT MINE, IT'S PJ's. :P ;)

Be Kind To Me Or Treat Me Mean, I'll Make The Most Of It I'm An Extraordinary Machine

Damnit... i'm so fucking angry. Free Fiona Apple's new cd you capitalist bastards, she is an artist not a money maker machine.

Wooooooooooooo!!!!!!

Love you guys... :)

:'(

This weekend kinda rule. I watched movies with my sisters and i ate a lot of candy and trash food... woooooooooooooo!!!

Saturday and sunday i were in high school again making exams to pump my grades a little more 'cause i don't have anything to do at the moment... :P

P hasn't answered me in two days and i'm worried... he doesn't love me anymore :'(

Love and have a great week... :)

Piano Fire

A girl was sitting in the bus stop waiting for something to happen, maybe she's waiting for a taxi or for the love of her life. I dunno why she is wearing a wedding dress, maybe she just felt like wearing one.

I came up to her and ask her for the time. "It's ten thirthy" she said. I waited for my bus in the seat right next to her. She didn't seem to be in a hurry to get somewhere, she was just there. I turned my face towards her in 30 seconds pauses maybe, just to see her eyes, to watch what she was looking at. I was there like half an hour and she didn't move. I got really intrigued by the way she just sat there with her sight in front. Then she suddenly smiled, she smiled in a very lovely way, like she was happy all of the sudden.

When my eyes turned to see what she was looking at, i saw a ballroom, people yelling and clapping, they all seemed very happy. After a few minutes, a married couple came out, holding hands and smiling.

The girl looked happy, her eyes were trembling, her palms over the chest. She stood from a sudden jump to the edge of the sidewalk with her eyes fixed in the car, the car that was taking the couple to their honeymoon or i dunno what. She sat back at the bus stop. The look of her eyes were lost, kind if an empty look.

I grabed the courage to ask her for the time again. "It's 11 o'clock" she said, "thank you very much" i replaid. "It seems like i've been stood up" -i said- "would you like to go for a cup of coffee?". "Ok" -she said- "but i have to change". "Why for?, you look lovely in that dress". She smiled and said... "ok"

"What's your name" i asked
"My name is Sarah..." and smiled again looking at the ballroom place.

I Can't Seem To Breathe With A Rusted Metal Heart..

I hope this is the last time i have to write about you.

I love you, i loved you and i can't seem to get over you. What happend with us was not real, but it was magical, it had something so powerfull that nor you and not i can explain. It was simple magic. I know that it will never happen again, it was a one an only experience in this life. I hope in another life we can be together and happy, holding our hands while walking below the moonlighted street.

I hope i can move on... i have to. Just give me a little more time...

Blah

Shitty mood, shitty day.

Never tell anyone how much you like to meet them and stuff, 'cause that might won't be ok with the other person. Hope we can meet each other perfectly in another time or in another life.

Listening to.... Mazzy Star : I've Been Let Down

Runnin' Out Of Thoughts...

Well, another week has gone and nothing interesting to tell again. I'm saving to buy the new Interpol and to buy my sister Isadora her birthday gift (a ticket to Franz Ferdinand) wooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!

This week i've been doing a lot of thinking in my next story to film, something small and kinda experimental, but in the same vein as my previous short film, of love and faith and destiny and all that stuff i'm interested in... but i can't figure out how to get it complete.

I'm sure i'm gonna use this song, i just know it. This song itself is a movie... :)

are you sure you got the right number
is it me you wanna talk to tonight
everyone in town's got your number
everybody's got you pegged right
is that why you got in touch with me
ohhh, guess you must be runnin' out of fools

you left me all alone right here
your goodbye was even colder than last
didn't bother you I was cryin'
now you wanna break my heart twice
is that why you got in touch with me
ohhh, guess you must be runnin' out of fools
you got back to my name in your little black book
tell you what I guess you forgot how I even look (yes you did)

so go ahead with all your sweet talkin'
go ahead for all the good it can do
have yourself a dime's worth of talkin'
then I'm gonna hang right up on you

'cause this time you're not getting through to me
ohhh, guess you must be runnin' out of fools
even fools like me (fools like me)
even fools like me
runnin' out of fools (fools like me)
even fools like me (fools like me)

Hugs to all and have a great week... woooooooo!!!!!!!! :*

There Will Never Be A Better Time

You stood up to the window to light a cigarette, you looked me from there, laying down on the bed with my head on your pillow, looked me like you had something to say, and then you asked "do you love the light that comes in from the street?" and i said "yes, sure... but i love the way your presence lights up the room better".

You said "do you think that life is all about this moments? these fragments of time?" and i wondered, i kept thinking about it for about 5 minutes more until you came on to bed again, unfolded the sheets and you let that warm body enter my soul again. You looked for my legs and made a chain with them, with yours and mine, my arms were around your chest while my head rested on your shoulder. Your hands were in my hips and your feet colder than ever touching mine.

After then minutes i had the answer to his question. I looked up to you, put my lips to your ears and said: "There Will Never Be A Better Time"

Deep Red Bells

Today i found out how i seriously love Neko Case. She writes in a way that strikes your emotional core without being so candyish and sweetly, she says what's on her mind and that somehow is the best way to enter one's heart.

I want a job,
i want a life,
i want a stereo that plays cd's correctly,
i want to read a good book,
i want to love someone,
i want to be loved,
i want to hug Pieter,
i want to hug Louise,
i want to touch foreign grass,
breath freezing cold air,
i want to say "i love you" to the people i care about...

Love...

Da Bod

Woooooooooooooooooooooo!
Woooooooooooooooooooooo!
Woooooooooooooooooooooo!

I just talked to P (a.k.a. Da Bod) and it was funny... he rocks!. After one and half year that i know him and of being my friend, just now i had the strenght to talk to him and not get under the table like the last time... :'(

The only bad thing was me and my voice... ugh, i hate it! :(

Woooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!

Another day...

What can i say today? This is all Pieter's fault 'cause he's bloggy rocks and i wanted one like him or Louise's... :'(

I woke up today feeling empty inside, like i haven't done anything relevant in my life. My school plans are stoped at the moment, i can't find a stupid job and my friends are too far away from me.

I've been listening to my Neko Case cd's these days like crazy and i've been drawing and writing stuff to send to my friends... :)

Love ya guys...

You...

We are waiting
For the summer
The sun will bring back
Treasures for us

Come on my friend
Drink to good times
Golden wishes
To your health and mine

You come through
For me
You come true
For me
You be well
For me
You come through
For me

I'll be lifted
On this our holiday
I'll take you my friend
I'll take you with me

You come through
For me
You come true
For me
You be well
For me
You come through
For me

Desired Constellation

It's tricky when
you feel someone
has done
something on your behalf

It's slippery when
your sense of justice
murmurs underneath
And is asking you:
How am I going to make it right?
How am I going to make it right?

With a palm full of stars
I throw them like dice
(repeatedly)
On the table
(repeat - repeatedly)
I shake them like dice
and throw them on the table
repeatedly(repeatedly)
until the desired constellation appears

How am I going to make it right?
How am I going to make it right?
How am I going to make it right?

(And you hear: how am I going to make it right?)

How am I going to make it right?
How am I going to make it right?

(How am I going to make it right?)

Worried

Yo, first real post after the welcome "woooooooo!!!"

The week has been shit like always, not having my mom around 'cause she's watching over my granma who had surgery a couple of weeks ago. I had to do everything in the house (cooking, cleaning, washing dishes, etc) and i'm full of it, i want to explote... :

And now it's sunday night and i'm worried as shit for a dear friend of mine, i dunno what to do sometimes to chear him up a bit, i wish i know a way to make him feel better. I love ya bro... :'(

Love...

Bods And Arrows

wooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!