He's Funny That Way

Goodnight Ms. Jean

Jean Simmons (1929-2010)

The Return...

Well, I've been writing in another blog from some years now, this is the first time in way too long that I update this thing. Not sure if I'll continue to do so, but hey, it's worth the shot, not?

Love.

So Sorry

I'm sorry
Two words I always think
After you've gone
When I realize I was acting all wrong

So selfish
Two words that could describe
Oh actions of mine
When patience is in short supply

We don't need to say goodbye
We don't need to fight and cry
Oh we, we could hold each other tight tonight

We're so helpless
We're slaves to our impulses
We're afraid of our emotions
And no one knows where the shore is
We're divided by the ocean
And the only thing I know is
That the answer isn't for us
No the answer isn't for us

I'm sorry
Two words I always think
Oh after you've gone
When I realize I was acting all wrong

We don't need to say goodbye
We don't need to fight and cry
We, we could hold each other tight tonight
Tonight
Tonight
Tonight
Tonight

Trailer Reservation Day

I forgot how much i liked Beth Orton, i love her goddamnit.

Yesterday i picked her cds of my shelve and started to listen to them and i have to say, they are fucking brilliant. I have everything until Daybreaker, then the other i didn't bought 'cause they were comps, and the last one she got out i found quite boring, but good overall.

Go listen to Beth again and enjoy... :)

Writing...

I believe that no one cares about me anymore, enough said.

Or i'm just sad.

Anyway...

Otherwise

I don't feel very well, in all aspects of my life right now, but i wanted to write something here.

A month ago (more or less) i started to work in the National Fund For The Arts again, but this time in a program that helps the development of independent magazines, another program for the literary translations of works in another languages into spanish and a program for translating mexican works into another language.

I got in that job 'cause Gabriela (my boss) told me i was going to be handling all the info about those programs and that i had to be in touch with all the people wo got the money the ask for their work. Anyway, i got there on day one and... surprise!!!!!! i was there to make xerox copies and whatnot, but not the things that she "wanted" me to do when we talked. So, i think you can imagine how frustrated i am in a job like this, it's horrible.

I'm gonna quit in a couple of weeks, i'm just waiting to get my paycheck next week and then i'm gonna tell Gabriela to look for a replacement, since i can't work there no mo.

K, in another news... INTERPOL IS COMING AGAIN!!!!! But in a far place from my house. Pie, remember Santa Fe? They are playing there, in a university, right next to the mall where we saw ZODIACOOOOO!!!!!! Mwhahaha!!!!! :P

I don't think i'll have the money to go though, but i'm happy they returned... :D

I'm so nervous too because of my exam for film school, since it's in two weeks and i'm very anxious, i dunno what the fuck is wrong with me... :'(

Love ya all, and thank you for keep reading this, your humble bloggy.

Kissy kissy :*

Come and get me in my sleep...

This is for u, 'cause i'm cool like that... :) :*

Intepol - C'mere

Daniel is the greatest, period.

I was thinking that night about Elvis... then he died

I don't know what to say. Not today.

My best friend Danae is going for a year to a god-forsaken place far north in the republic to do her internship of medicine. It's a really strange feeling, like emptyness, 'cause we saw each other everyday for the past 10 years, everyday, so it is so fucking strange not having her around.

At night, we went outside to smoke and talk about our lives and just the thought that i'm not gonna be able to do that with her for a very long time is killing me. I feel alone again. I know i have my friends and all, my other pals, but she is such an important part of my life, that is really painfull.

I wish her all the best in the world and she's gonna be a fucking amazing doctor, that's for sure.

So, i love you, even though you're never gonna read this, i really do.

Kisses to this lonely night.

:'(

Now that we've met...

I can't seem to write down anything that can measure of express what i feel, literally.

It was SO great, SO fantastic, SO many things that words don't match anything i want to say.

The only stuff that comes up is pure cheesyness, 'cause you made me so happy, so so so happy.

I got the chance to hang out with my brother, my friend, a truely remarkable guy that the only thing that he deserves is to be inmensely happy if he chooses to be. He's THAT great. I haven't met anyone like him, like you.

You're my bro man, and i think you know it. I love you so much and thank you for bothering to come all this way for a Torta di Punta!... :D

Hugs... <3

What do you do with the pieces of a broken heart?

M. Ward (feat. Neko Case, Jim James and Kelly Hogan) - Chinese Translation



Beautiful.

Gringo Bod!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

Well, after all these 5 years that we've been talking, becoming friends, and i think that caring for one another, Pie came to visit me.

Yesterday (the first day) it was kind of intense, i was cleaning my house from 5 days before and i couldn't finish cleaning up by 3pm (he arrived at 5:30pm). I went to the airport to pick him up with Danaé and Yessica, and i was really nervous, REALLY. I got there and i didn't saw him and i started to get anxious, checking arrivals and stuff and then "RIIIIING RIIIIING", my cell was ringing, it was him, that he was in another gate. I started walking to the other gate and BAM!, he was there, in front of me, after all these years. So, we smiled and i hugged him. I introduced him to my friends and we took of, for a beer at Coyoacan, the neighborhood where Frida Kahlo lived and had her house. I got a little bit drunk (with two beers) and then we came back here, at my place.

Immediatly, Vinnie started to bark at him and Romy too, 'cause they always do that with strangers. Dogo came down and was a love, like always, he smelled him and started to move his tail. The Sussie came down and fell in love with him, she can't leave him alone, she wags her tail sooo much that it's unbelieveable.

I'm so happy that he's here, i hope he has a nice time.

We'll be going to Chiapas tomorrow morning so, see ya all very soon.

Love you all... <3

Closing Time

Today is my father's professional exam. He's gonna screen his movie and then a bunch of freaky people is gonna ask him stuff about it, how it was made, why, when, etc.

This film was made 20+ years ago, and it's a movie about a gay serial killer, scary as shit. My dad is kinda insane... :D

Also, the best news i've had in years, IN YEARS, is that DA BOD, the one and only Bod, the Bod himself is gonna step mexican ground in a few weeks... WOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

I'm so fucking happy, words can't explain what i feel right now.

Bliss.

Hmmm...

Well, yesterday was the graduation party of Danae, my dear friend. It was really emotional for me, because my partner in crime leave me here all alone, for almost two years, to go and make her hospítal internship in a town far away from here. I didn't want to cry, but i did, i couldn't help myself, i was too sad or i'm too emotional lately.

Anyway, the party ended at 4:30am and the afterparty was at Danae's house (two houses away from mine :P) and it ended at 9:30am. It was so funny, because everyone left except a very drunk guy that fell asleep in the table. It was an odyssey to wake him up, like hour and a half or so. Haha, it was so funny... :P

Well, not all things were fun yesterday. Yessica's house was robbed (and the fuckers took her car, laptop, desk pc, etc). I talked to her this morning and she was better, more calm. Fucking idiots, hope they rot in hell. Period.

I couldn't keep the night from coming in...

Well, i'm back from a looooong week of work at MACO, the contemporary art fair. Blanca hired me this time as her personal translator, because she doesn't talk shit of english, so, she needed someone who was with her the whole time arranging interviews with the artists of the galleries and what not.

The place where MACO took place was horrible, it was in a residential building under construction. The first floor and the basement, that is the parking lot. No no no no, you really can't imagine the chaos that was like. I spent all the five days running up and down for useless stuff, waiting hours to do something, etc. It's really tiring not doing anything and just feeling time passing by so slowly.

But anyway, i'm here, recovering for the week and reading a bit books that i left half way through.

Kisses... :)

Strange...

I can't get to feel 100% good, you know the feeling? It's like something is holding me down to get to the place i want to be in, the place i want to feel comfortable in. Anyway, that never seems to happen...

I wanted to talk to a guy i knew some months ago in a party in Cuernavaca, a friend of my friend's Danae's cousin. All these months i've asked Danae to ask his cousin the email so i can talked to this very cool guy, and yesterday she finally did, after all these months she did. BUT, i added him yesterday and i hoped i could bump up to him in all the day's course, but nothing. I get impatient and i found out through a site where you can see who blocked you and stuff, and apparently, he did... :(

Why all these things happen to me?... :/

Love to you all... <3

I Don't Want To Sleep Alone

Syndromes and a Century

Country Mile

Silver Birch against a Swedish sky
The singer in the band made me want to cry
We’re all inside our own heads now
We are leaving new friends
We are leaving this town
I wish you could be here with me
I would show you off like a trophy
The road it winds, it twists, it turns, now my stomach burns

Once again I’ll be the foolish one
Thinking a blink of these lashes would make you come
Don’t you worry, don’t get in a state
I don’t believe in true love anyway
Who’s being pessimistic now
I could document this as our first and our last row
The more you look forlorn, the more to you I warm

I won’t be seeing you for a long while
I hope it’s not as long as a country mile
I feel lost

I want to feel pretty...

For you... and for me.

And I am blue... and i'm well

Well, i guess i can say i'm back... :D

I'm doing quite alright, feeling very tired from the work at the film fest, which was INTENSE. I think this time it was really stressy and difficult, like body wise, because i wasn't expecting to be carrying heavy stuff, running from one floor to the other and so on, so, it was kinda like that for all the ten days that the festival lasts.

The festival newspaper asked me (well, the programmers actually) to write an article on Syndromes and A Century from Apitchatpong Weerasethakul and it was published and they told me it was a really good one so, i'm really proud of that. I watched two films on the cinema and another 10 or 12 at home on DVD. I'm gonna recommend you all some of those latur.

I've missed you all so fucking very much and i want to know everything i've missed in the last month or so that i've been out of touch with all of ya darling.

See you soon... :)

:*

Da Fuckin' Bodday!!!!

Unlike Me

There are no guarantees in life
Not for the present,
Nor for the future.
All I know is
That I'm here;
Don't know for how long.
I love the way
You live so intensely
Enjoy every minute of life
With space to swing
Your arms around
Laughing loudly

Unlike me
Unlike me
Do you think I'm strange?
Unlike you
Unlike you
I am not pretending

There is no time,
There is no time,
There is no time,
Time doesn't really exist.

The past, the present,
And the future,
Are all side by side,
Hand in hand.
You move and change,
Yet you go nowhere:
Everything stays the same.
You stare at me,
And ask me questions,
Makes me nervous,
This room it keeps a constant tone
While I'm on a roller coaster

Unlike me
Unlike me
Do you think I'm strange
Unlike you
Unlike you
I am not pretending

There is no time
There is no time
There is no time
Time doesn't really exist

There is no time
There is no time
There is no time
Time doesn't really exist

Wishes...

Well, this year is done damnit.

Lots of good and bad things, but mostly bad. I think that in general, this year as not been good for must of my friends and relatives. So... fuck this year.

Next year will be better, it must be.

I want to wish you all you hotties that read this bloggy a happy new year and that all your resolutions come to reality (if possible, if not, it doesn't matter... :P).

I love you all and i wish you all the best.

Thank you for being here with me.

Hugs and kisses... :)

Top 25 of 2006

Well, here's my list and i think it's pretty hot... WOOOOOOO!!!!! :D

1. Neko Case : Fox Confessor Brings The Flood
2. Joanna Newsom : Ys
3. Cat Power : The Greatest
4. Jenny Lewis & The Watson Twins : Rabbit Fur Coat
5. Rainer Maria : Catastrophe Keeps Us Together
6. TV On The Radio : Return To Cookie Mountain
7. Julieta Venegas : Limón y Sal
8. Junior Boys : So This Is Goodbye
9. The Rapture : Pieces Of The People We Love
10. Isobel Campbell & Mark Lanegan : Ballad Of The Broken Seas
11. Casiotone For The Painfully Alone : Etiquette
12. Be Your Own Pet : Be Your Own Pet
13. Nelly Furtado : Loose
14. Girl Talk : Night Ripper
15. The Pipettes : We Are The Pipettes
16. Peter Bjorn and John : Writer’s Block
17. Howe Gelb : 'sno Angel Like You
18. Camera Obscura : Lets Get Out Of This Country
19. Liars : Drum's Not Dead
20. Mastodon : Blood Mountain
21. Califone : Roots And Crowns
22. Tim Hecker : Harmony In Ultraviolet
23. Lily Allen : Alright, Still
24. Deftones : Saturday Night Wrist
25. Boris : Pink

Merry christmas to all you hotties. I love each an every one of you... :)

Just let it take you...

Well, my work with Monica at the Fund is done now so, i'm kinda on vacations.

On january i start working at the film fest again and i can't wait. I dunno why i'm so excited now, maybe is because this time i'm gonna put 110% of my energy on that.

The year is ending and i'm almost done with my top 25 best albums of the year list. I love making this list, haha, i dunno why, but each year is laik exciting to make. So, make yours and post damnit, post.

I've been doing pretty ok-ish, i ended something that got me stressed out for some time now. It was getting physical, like i was having stomach aches everyday, head aches, lots of acne and stuff. I was letting my emotional wreck get out of my soul by doing this things to my body. Anyway, i talked to Monica and she wisely adviced me to solve the thing or things that was inside of me, so i did. I talked to the problem and told him that i couldn't be there anymore, that it was something i couldn't handle and liked. He understood and parted our own ways. I'll post something i wrote within the week to see what you guys think.

AAAAny way, i must admit, that Justin Timberlake album is REALLY good, and i'm kinda not embarrased to say it aloud... :P

Christmas kisses and hugs to all goddmanit... :) :*

Are You In?

That's an awesomely sexy Incubus song and i'm proud that i have it on my iBod, haha, i really am... :D

I'm two weeks away from finishing my work at the Fund and get a vacation. I really need it. I had my trip to Europe planned for these weeks but i'm really glad that i changed it to march, because i feel very tired and i don't wanna feel this way when i go there. I wanna absorb everything (and everyone, hahaha!) and i won't be tired.

Vinnie (my dog, Dogo's son) is getting better and better everyday, with his medicine. It's an articulation rebuilder, so he can go up and down again and keep playing with everyone.

Crappy post not?... :P

Robert Altman 1925 - 2006

"Robert Altman, the beloved director of such classics as M*A*S*H, Nashville, 3 Women, The Player, Short Cuts, and, most recently, A Prairie Home Companion, has died at age 81 of undisclosed causes. One of the most acclaimed American filmmakers of all time, Altman had a staggering fifty-plus-year career, moving from the early days of television serials to the big screen, where, in the seventies, he revolutionized mainstream cinema with his multilayered soundtracks and sprawling multicharacter narratives."

It's a very strange feeling that i have right now, and i dunno if it's because i'm a freak or what, but lemme tell you. All day i've been sad about this news, because Altman is one of my top 5 directors in the world. His movies are very important to me, i grew up with them. His portrail of women is remarkable, he always puts it in the middle of his work (his most important work), like an engine, like the core of everything, and that's really important for me.

May he rest in peace and we'll miss him very much in this universe... :'(

Morelia...

I just came back from my visit to Morelia's International Film Festival. It's a festival that is in one of the most conservative states in the republic, but the people of the chain of movie theatres thought of the bright idea of making it there... :P

Anyway, the festival was on it's 4th year and this time i got to go, because my sister is working with Ambulante, the documentary film tour around the republic. Ambulante is part sponsored by Cinepolis, the movie theatre corporative, so every year they get to anounce the programm of next year.

The closing day of the Morelia Fest was yesterday night and i got invited to the party by my sister and boss. So, i took Danaé, Emilia (Danaé's friend), Alberto (Danae's brother) and Denisse (Alberto's friend). We drank so much it was unhealthy... HAHAHAHA!!!!!!!! And there where cute guys all around... :P

I came home today, just a few hours ago and my mom told me that Vinnie is ok, the vet gave her medicine for the pain from now on, and he's been normal. I opened the door and there he was, like always, so cute... :)

I'll tell you more latur...

Where You've Been Hiding

Stuck at your front gate
Wth some pictures I just want to hand you

Almost made the door knock twice
Broke down on your veranda

Turn the dry concrete
Into wet concrete

I can’t find you anywhere
Find you find you find you find you
I can’t find you anywhere
Pictures pictures pictures pictures
So I wrote you a letter
In capital letters
Saying all that I care for
All that i care for is
Where you’ve been hiding

Where you’ve been hiding
Which way the habits collect
Neatly upon your stairs
Which way we’ll be end them both discreetly
Leaving ‘em for dead
When I find, when you find, when we find, when I’ve found
Where you’ve been hiding

Where you’ve been hiding

It's been a while.

Yo, it's been a month since i don't update... :O

I thought it was like three weeks or so, but anyway, i'm gonna do it now.

Things have been kinda fast for the past weeks, Monica was making all the arrangements to go to Korea and China, for the performing arts fairs of both countries. So, i helped her with all the plane tickets, hotel reservations, technical requirements for the groups to perform in the fairs, etc.

Well, then Monica went off to that trip and i got in charge of the office (not much to do, except archiving some stuff). I had time to do Maddy's stuff, the research for the Film Fest and the directors, but then Maddy told me that we we're not going to do that anymore and that she will tell me latur.

I've been ok i guess, feelings-like, a little bit nostalgic for things that i keep thinking about, but i have to accept that that's over and i have to move on.

what keeps me worried is that Vinnie (my dog, Dogo's son) has a very serious hip problem, he can't walk too much now, he's lying in the couch or in the bed with my parents, he doesn't want to move much due to that problem. That hip operation that he need, here in Mexico costs around $1,500 dollars, which is a lot of money for us right now, so, that occupies my mind most of the time... :(

Anyway, i'm sure he's gonna be ok, he's such an amazing dog, just like is dad... :)

Love you all... :)

Of all the angels you're the most divine...

Past week at work has been ok, nothing much to do really. I've been writing letters to the chinese arts festival that the big boss is going, so i had lots to worry about for my english not be too bad... :D

Also, Maddy called me to work in the Film Fest again, which made me very very happy. I'm gonna do the same as the past years plus inviting important directors, actors, cinematographers, editors, etc. to come and give a masterclass or course or whatever they want to give. If you guys have names please tell me so i can start working on them right away. :)

I finally bought the official PJ dvd and i found a cd for sale, which rocks ass and always wanted to buy it but it was sooooo fucking expensive when it was released: Lucinda Williams's World Without Tears

My birthday is coming soon and i'm a little bit sad, but i think that happens to all of us whenever our birthdays are getting close.

Love you my darling, and the title of this entry it for you... *heart*

Fool

Well, it's time for writing, now that i'm a bit better... :D

Better because i had bronquitis all the past week, caused because the last time i had the flu i didn't took care of myself that good and last week i got stuck under the rain, so, in consecuence i had bronquitis... :'(

Amazing good news: Cat Power is going to perform here september 20th and my sista bough me the tickets as a birthday present. I'm really really happy and excited to go see her, not that she's all calmed down and doesn't go home in the middle of her show... :D

Also, a week ago i started working with Monica. Basically what i have to do is making an inventory of all the international performing arts festivals and markets that the director of the Fund. And keeping her company and translate some letter and stuff, no big deal. WOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

I've been watching a lot of my favorite movies recently, and not because i had planned to do it, it's just weird that almost all of them are being aired on TV here. So, i was kinda thinking in making a small review of them later on, just for fun.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! :)

Tonight Was A Disaster

you went out with your best sweater on
with every intention of dancing til dawn
but when the dj played that song
it all went wrong

and crying in the cab ride home
with the frank sinatra on the radio
but it might as well have been lil kim
when every song you hear still reminds you of him

and you'll say that it's no big deal
but it's the shake in your voice that gives away how you feel
and you couldn't have slammed the door any faster

yeah you'll say that it's no big deal
but it's the tears on your face that give away how you feel
they say tonight tonight was a disaster

Sussie and I

My lovely Sussie and the beast... :)

'Cause You Are My Revolver...

Well, been a two weeks since i don't update so... here i go.

I've been taking a course for my subjects that i owe for high school and with these exams, i'm totally done and ready to move on to another thing.

The course has been nice, some nice teachers and some others not quite so, but, what can i do? The test is very close and i had to find something quick and cheap.

So, taking this course has taken a lot of time that i had for my friends and my stuff, so i wasn't able to update here or see my hotties online (an apology.)

Ok, so that was that and i hope to write some interesting news as soon as possible.

Love you all... :)

1

Sade : No Ordinary Love
Dir: Sophie Muller

This is it, this is the one, this is my favorite video of all times. If there's anything in this world more full of powerfull music and images combined, is this video. This video is stuck with me since the first time i saw it, in 1992 when i was 10 years old. There are two elements in the video that makes it very important for me, that is the lonely bride and the mermaid elemnts.

Sophie Muller directed this video with such style, such image story-telling that it's beyond my imagination. Besides, the Sade's song has it's place on it's own. The song is what i call, a timeless love song, full of passion and full of sentiment.

I fucking love this video damnit... WOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

Thank you very much sticking to this idea of mine, i hope you had a nice time watching and listening to this stuff... I love you all. :)

2

PJ Harvey : C'mon Billy
Dir. Maria Mochnacz

I think pretty much everyone who read this bloggy knows that my favorite artist is PJ Harvey, by far. But as much as i love her and her music, i really don't think any of her videos make her justice or justice to the song, except the ones that came from To Bring You My Love and the ones that came from Stories From The City...

I think Maria Mochnacz does a wonderfull video and brings out a great performance by Polly, with great cinematography and amazing energy.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! PJ!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!! :D

3

Björk : Possibly Maybe
Dir. Stephane Sednaoui

Of all of Björk's videos, i think this one is the one i love the most (the other ones includes Oceania and Triumph Of The Heart). I think Sednaoui made a perfect video, because the songs has different textures and colours, and he gave the lyrics and music their perfect balance on the screen.

Just perfect... <3

PS: Turn the volume of your speakers a bit because the clip has no good sound quality) :P

4

Portishead : Only You
Dir. Chris Cunningham

In any best music video list has to come up the name of Chris Cunningham, responsable of such amazing imagery of the likes of Björk, Maddona, Aphex Twins and this amazingly beautiful Portishead video. I love this song, it is my favorite Portishead song and i'm really happy that Cunningham made the song justice, giving it a very obscure, haunting and ghostly feel to it.

WOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

5

Interpol : Obstacle 1
Dir. Floria Sigismondi

Talking about female directors for music videos, Floria Sigismondi did a wonderfull job directing this video for Interpol. Taking only black and white as the main colours for the band and red for being the evil lady in red, representing anger and resentment that the song is talking about. Floria cast herself because they couldn't find anyone who could do that type of movements the way she wanted to, but only herself ... and i think she did a perfect job in both, directing and perfoming.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

6

Nelly Furtado : Try
Dir. Sophie Muller

There are not a lot of female video directors out there, so, i've always admired the courage that Sophie Muller has by making her way and having a place among the great visual artists of the 90s. I love this song, i really do, and i love the video more than anything in the world. I read that Nelly and Sophie wanted to give it a Days Of Heaven kinda look, and they absolutly did.

In the video, the couple is having rough economic times at home, so the boy goes out and looks for work, while the girl stays home and waits for her husband. While she's waiting, she longs for a sweet hug of her hurband and she gets unpatient and goes after him. And the video ends in the most beautiful way ever... :)

7

Tori Amos : A Sorta Fairytale
Dir. Sanji

This is a great great video. It portrays what a perfect fairytale is all about. The lovers have physical imposibilities but they stick to each other, until he founds a defect of her that she didn't wanted to reveal, so he laughs and she gets kinda hurt. So, what she does is run and tries to hide her defect back. But he founds her and make her understand that her beauty is more about her, than her deffect. And love makes them complete again and breaks the curse. And: IT HAS ADRIEN BRODY, an amazing performance by Tori, with great cinematography.

Very pretty isn't it? :)

8

Fiona Apple : Never Is A Promise
Dir. Stephane Sednaoui

This is the third video that Fiona did to promote TIDAL, and i think she saved the best for last. In this video directed by Stephane Sednaoui, Fiona unleashes all of her vulnerability and her sensitivity. The empty street and the lights give perfect harmony for a song about loneliness and disarming one's trust and love with lies.

Woooooooo!!!!!!!!

9

Janet Jackson : Got 'Til It's Gone
Dir. Mark Romanek

Mark Romanek is one of the most talented visual artist of the past decade. His visuals are one of a kind and his videos are always related with a piece of art he admires. This video has to be one of his bests (IMHO), it features Janet Jackson in her most beautiful look in a music video. The idea of the video is to capture the essense of a community, their perfections and imperfections (which leads us to another kinda of beauty).

Anyway, check it out... :)

10

Roger Sanchez : Another Chance
Dir: Phillipe Andre

I don't like the song that much, but the video is so amazing. The girl and the heart and the guy who sees her sadness and wants to help her get her joy back, it's simply stunning.

<3

Videos

Ok, with the recent YouTube fever everywhere (and i mean everywhere), i've had the idea of posting my top 10 favorite music videos.

The past two could count, but they don't, because i posted them before this idea... :D

Love to ya all... :)

Beautiful

Mazzy Star : Flowers In December
Dir. Kevin Kerslake

One of the best music videos of the world... <3

Wow...

Stina Nordenstam - Little Star
Dir. Michel Gondry

<3

Burn

Love is like a tyranny.
And I'm a tyrant sentencing.
You said that you believed in me
and would burn for your beliefs.

I watched you burn,
burn for me.
I watched you burn,
burn for me.

Love's some kind of sorcery,
an inquisition's questioning.
You said that you believed in me
and to take you on some time.
You said that you believed in me
and would burn for your beliefs.

I watched you burn.
I watched you burn for me.
I watched you burn,
burn for me.

But now I wonder how
I stood by and I let you down.
But maybe I couldn't see
that you would burn for me.
You were strong and clever
and I didn't know any better.

. . . didn't know any better.
I could have set you free
but I watched you burn.
I could have set you free
but I watched you burn.
Yeah, I could have set you free
but I watched you burn.

Yellow

The entry titles are from things that surround me in the PC, so, don't pay much attention. And i've decided i'm gonna put "Short Story" to my short stories so people won't get confussed about what's a story and what's an entry.

Well, since last wednesday i've been resting for all the work i did in Gateway Of The Americas, almost two weeks ago. Gateway is an arts market, people from all over the world come and rent a stand in the fair, show their proposals and managers and programmers from festivals or theathers come and see what's new or what's interesting and buy show dates and stuff. It's a cool idea, many countries in the world does it with great results.

So, i was working there with the coordinator of international delegates, Monica, who is the boss of my sister's job now. My sister talked to Monica about me and she called me to work with her as backup and stuff. I was helping her out with questions and any needs that the international people could ask.

I knew a lot of new people, but specially, i knew a really awesome sir named Felipe, who is a teacher at the University of Philadelphia. He's a theater guy, an urbanist and i don't remember what else, but he's über cool. He is the most charming gentleman i've knew in my life, so humble and so smart, funny, witty and generous (he gave us a huge chocolate cake)... :O

Monica, my boss, was cool too. Very funny and spunky, we got along truely well. She's so sweet. I hope i can work with her another time... :)

Now, the only thing i want, is rest for a month or so... :D

Love... :*

Meaning

The meaning of Snob:

"I know I'm a snob when people say obvious stupid things about things they think they know – but don't. I'm not a snob towards people who doesn't claim they know things. You know?"

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:D

We float...

Well, i don't understand why no one comments on my short stories (do they suck?). Although the last one wasn't a story, but a dairy entry... :P

Yesterday was cool. I went to see Maria Daniela y Su Sonido Lasser and they were really groovy. They play horribly but it's such a fun show.

At the place i was with my friends Priscilla, Jefferson and Brenda. Later in the night came my sister Isadora, after Nancy and Jocabed. After a very uncomfortable incident that i went through with someone of my pass, we decided to go to a place called BullPen. That place is really ugly, like low, a lot of different people get together in there. It's an afterhours place. Anyway, we all went and it was real fun, because the place is very small, like a two room place, very small rooms, haha. We sweated everything (i was very drunk :P) and we laughed and we danced, it was like a moshpit in there. Very cool.

I got home at 5:15am and i have a terrible headache still... :D :P

Love... :)

Overload

Damn, what a match we were...

I saw him last tuesday, at 12pm at the cinema. I had a phone conversation with him a few months back, when i worked at the film fest. He was charming as always and i was afraid as i've always been around him. It's my nature.

Anyway, i saw him at the cinema complex. He was on-time like he's used to really. I was weird the first hour, because i knew the situation we were in this time. I was the other one, the one who he is not commited to. I really felt like i was doing something wrong, because i was, and it killed my senses. I wanted to tell him so many things that i'd been thinking about for the past months, the past year and nothing came out naturally, like i would have wanted.

But we bought tickets to the movies and we saw Match Point, haha, believe it or not, the perfect movie for the perfect cheater date. We sat at the film theather and it went all to hell. The theather were alone and we were the only people there. After 10 minutes that the movie started, a really old sir came in the theather and sat like 5 rows in front of us. He began to snore really really loud after 20 minutes of the film, haha, that was really funny. Anyway, he began to touch my knee and i moved. He tried to near his knee next to mine and i moved. I couldn't resist no more when he searched for my hand and grabed it.

It was bizarre, because i knew we were really different in many ways. But we always end up doing what kept us together those years. We were nice to each other in moments we needed too. And in that moment, we needed that.

We talked a bit, just a bit, about unimportant matters. We said goodbye like we always do. And then he kissed me. In front of everyone, in the afternoon. And i took that kiss back. Without guilt or regret or caring about other people's opinion. I'm kinda proud of myself for that.

Short Story: Kiss

I was standing in the subway next to him, like an act of destiny, i got in that same wagon, that same train, next to that particular soul.

My hands where trembling, my feet began to ache, it was all very strange. The time moved so slow, it seemed like a small building was becoming bigger and bigger.

I started to feel the soft breathing on my neck, the sweet smell of his hair, the sound of his deep voice while he coughed to make me notice him, but i didn't turned. He knew i saw him, he noticed my body start to get nervous, my hair falling down my face without me not even trying to put it in it's place.

My mind started to pull tricks on me, it started to give me flashes of moments that reminded me of him. But the most important one, was the one he had in mind too...

It was at night, after a concert, we were very happy because the band played our song. As we walked to the subway station, he holded my hand, thing that he never did until that moment and that moment only. We walked down the station and we stood there, next to the rail, waiting for the next train to pass by. As we were standing there, he huged be from behind and i could feel his beard on my neck, a nice itchie feel, a pleasant itch. He started to sing me the song the band played. And then, he grabbed me by the arms and turned me around, huged me with such sweetnes that it can't be described. Then he started to get closer to me, i closed my eyes and i felt his warm, loving and caring mouth againt mine. I tasted his soul, his thoughts, his feelings, his longings and for the first time, i had the first glance of heaven and of happiness. In that very moment, he made me feel complete.

That flashed ended when the subway doors opened and people started to get out in that stop. He was gonna get off in that stop, because i felt him moved is backpack to start walking though the doors.

Then, as the alarm of the doors closing sound, he passed me by and put a note in my jacket's pocket. He got out and stood there, watching me and he said goodbye waving his hand, with that lovely smile he has.

As the train began it's way, he started walking to the stairs. I lost sight of him when the trained passed that tunnel, so, i grabed the note from my pocket and opened it. It said: "Don't you wish we could forget that kiss?"

I don't wish that i could forget that kiss, because in that kiss, he got a piece of my soul and he gave me a piece of his heart.

Calendar

My weekend was just tiring damnit. On friday i went to the birthday party of my ex-boss Blanca's boyfriend and it was just extreme, i drank myself to death (almost :P) and took care of my sister Isadora who was worse than me. Pris, Danaé, Brenda and Nancy went too and we all had a nice drunkin' time... WOOOOOOO!!!! :D

On saturday i was über hung-overed, we stayed at my sister Isaura's apartment to sleep, because we didn't wanted to come back home, the distance from the place of the party to my house is a bit far and it would have been expensive, so, we decided to go with my sis who is far more close. Anyway, we woke up and my sisters went for breakfast and stuff, so i sleept some more, haha... :D

After we had breakfast, we had to go to my country house because all my family was there, celebrating Mother's Day (which here in México is on May 10th) so, we went and on the highway it was such a horrible transit, but horrible, normally we make one hour and half to get there. Well, not this time, we did 3 hours to get there because of the exit of the highway.

Anyway, we got there and it was all the same, haha, nothing changes... nothing. I was there with my family a bit and i returned home with Isaura and Jorge (his husband) because they had Jorge's family lunch celebrating Mother's day too... :P

I still feel drunk from friday, hahahah!!!! :P

Speaker

Damn, it's been almost a month since i wrote (put the lyrics) here and it's a bit shocking, because for me, time has passed to damn fast that i didn't noticed how long that was... :O

I have been doing ok i guess, lots of up-and-down moments in these past weeks. I'm jobless now, which means that i'm hanging out with my thoughts only.

My sister told me if i could help her out in a performing arts fair that she's working on right now and it will only be 5 days, which seems very nice and i need the money and the distraction.

I saw Depeche Mode last friday in concert. It was really really awesome, so much fucking energy and it was a big stadium, so many people jumping and dancing. Martin Gore has such a pretty voice, he sang HOME and i almost cried my brains out. They played two hours straight and it was brilliant. I think that after PJ's concert, this was the one that follows... :)

I promise i won't keep this as empty as it's been... i love you all that keep reading this bloggy, because you are the people i write for... :)

Love.

Long Knives

well baby
did our sky fall down
and no one wants no one wants no one wants
to rebuild it now
we once drew a crowd
with my evil eye
and your crazy mouth
let's get over each other
let's get over each other

well baby
did our time run out
and no one wants no one wants no one wants
to rebuild it now
i liked it best how
we took the whole world on
back to back
long knives drawn

let's get over each other
let's get over each other
so that we can fall in love again
so that we can fall in love again

won't you ho-ho-hold me
ho-ho-hold me
make believe that
you don't loathe me

am I mistaken
when I woke up this morning
without you there I'm shaken
to the very foundation

once there was something
and now there's just a piece of atmosphere

am I mistaken
when I woke up this morning
without you there
I'm shaken to the very foundation

Damn

Today my dear sista Yessica left to Europe to live, for a year she says, but i think it will be more than that.

I feel a really big empty space now, in my heart. It's really hard to explain, but i'm gonna miss her, very very much.

I love you Yeya and i hope everything you ask, come true... :)

*kiss*

Bodbert

I did it all for the bodbert,
The bodbert
So you can take that cockbert
And stick it up your *yeah*
Stick it up your *yeah*
Stick it up your *yeah*
Stick it up your...

WTF?

What the fuck is up with these fuckings nuts???



Love ya darlings!!!!!!!!!!! :D

:D :D :D :D :D :D

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This Time

This time
We are made of paper
We are the crust of a tree
That doesn’t have anything to do
With the sweating of the wind

We’re napkin
And the light receipt
We’re napkin
And the light receipt

This time we are made of paper
We’re the infractions
And we’re the pages of the bible
This time we are honest

We’re napkin
And the light receipt
We’re napkin
And the light receipt

This time we are made of paper
We’re the infractions
This time we are honest
For ever
For ever
For ever

It's a Julieta Venegas song that rocks ass... :'(

Bods will be bods

It's not easy love-
but you've got bods you can trust...

Bods will be bods
When you're in need of love they give you care and attention
Bods will be bods
When you're through with life and all hope is lost
Hold out your hand cos bods will be bods-
Right till the end

For P, L, Y, J, D and everyone i'm missing out... i love you guys. :*

Taken from Da Bod's Bloggy... :)

So that was that

Today i went to talk to Blanca, to quit the job.

She seemed kinda like me, like we both stopped carring a heavy lift off our shoulders. I told her that i got a permanent job at the Film Fest (which is a lie) and that they offered me more money (did she said that money was not a problem and she would give me more? of course not). Anyway, she told me she was very happy for me because she knew that film is my life and that it was an important thing for me. Also told me that she was not going to search for another assistant because of the shitty payment and all. We parted as friends, very quiet and very simple, no dramas or anything.

The only thing that i could tell you is that i won't miss that place at all... AT ALL!!!!

I dunno what i'm gonna do next, but i think i have some spare time to decide what's next, not? :)

Return to form...

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

I'm back and ready for everything that comes in my way goddamnit. :P

Tomorrow i'm gonna quit the Foundation job, because it's giving me troubles and innecesary worries than benefits, so, fuck that motherfucker job... :D

The festival was nice, not quite like last year, but nice. The best part of it was that i saw Javier Porta Fouz again, and it was a pleasure and a delight to hang out and hear him talk about films and stuff again, he's the most amazing film critic i've read and known. We talked about the festival being very very disorganized and that everything was just weird and upside down, and he was quite right, everyone had troubles in their areas and that became obvious. But i believe that the Education Project (the project of Maddy) went very well, every school was awesome and the students came out really happy of the screenings.

I love you guys, for keep reading the bloggy and for being there for me... i really love you all very very much... :)

Memories that unleashes other things...

Well, i guess that i have to update what i've been doing these past month and a half or so.

I'm working in the two places (Foundation and Film Fest) and both jobs have been killing me slowly, because it's too much of a sacrifice to be enough time in both places. In the morning, i go to the Foundation with Blanca, and i can't stand Blanca's way of asking for things. She's like a very very complicated person to work with, because she blows up a little simple thing out of proportion and it's simply not right. But then again, that is what's paying my depts and paying my airplane ticket to go see my bods.

And then there is the Film Fest. In that place i feel save, because i know everybody and because everybody likes me and we all have a good time. It's getting kinda complicated now because Maddy is doing other stuff too and she's not very focused on what's important AT THE MOMENT, not when the festival is over. So, because she's into something else, she's not updating me on the stuff she changes, and i'm stuck with the stuff i had before and people ask me stuff and i dunno whether she changed it or left it like i have it, i dunno, it's hard. But not compaired with Blanca, Maddy is such a cool and undertanding person, she asked me stuff nicely or we divided the job to make it easier and faster.

In my life i've been kinda ok-ish. Everything normal until yesterday, that Yessica lended me Brokeback Mountain. I really really wanted to see it, and not just because the gay thing, but because i've heard good comments and nice reviews and all about it. So, i watched it and it got to me, i mean, IT REALLY DID, i couldn't sleep because i kept thinking about the damn fucking movie and i was crying. It's such a personal film experience that i'm talking about here, that's why i love movies, they connect in the right time at the right place, and this time it did. I kinda needed to see that and let that out of my heart.

You have to see it, it's really a beautiful powerfull film. Heath Ledger keeps surprising me and Michelle Williams is kinda brilliant. The cinematography is lovely. Hell, i really recommend you guys see it.

I dunno how to let you go for fuck's sake and it's killing me. I always keep telling someone that read this bloggy to let go of that fucking horrible experience that he had, but i'm not able to do what i advice, and i know it's hard and i know it's not easy letting go of experiences that in some fucking weird way enrich your life and make it nice. I really need to let you go and to accept that i fucked up and i will regret it for the rest of my life.

Love.

I'm Still Your Fag

Heard about your wife and kids where we slept
Felt their mouths with stitches at that were slowly lit
Capture uniform this time because I couldn't quit
Haven't felt the ground so cold without getting sick

And I'm still your fag
I'm still your fag

It's a possibility to live without lips
Kleenex love to fill right up with all the broken kids
I swore I drank your piss that night to see if I could live
But my wrists couldn't stand the light that we missed

And I'm still your fag
I'm still your fag

You're only coming out because you came back in
You're only coming out cause you came back in

I'm still your fag
I'm still your fag

To the birthday bod... :)

Love ya goddamnit... :) :*

Gifts will follow... ;)

:)

"Words"

I cannot resist words

I cannot resist
words hug me

like the madness of an octopus
the wandering of your tongue

I cannot resist
the breath of your mouth
flames
red like a throat
travelling its path
and the shadow
the body cannot resist
the deep dagger being born
words
being born

the warm trajectory
of your tongue
I speak
words chose me.

"My pleasure" by Renata Pallotini

My pleasure is a dream in your body.

The image arouses in you a night of ferns
and dark pillows hidden long ago.
I close my eyes and see you among the leaves
and you desire me as one desires life.
You have been walking toward this moment
and the path feels centuries warm.
You ask me nothing: the body is a ready answer.
Deep and oily like damp bridges
moving from stair to stair in the secret twilight.

And we kiss consciously
kissing every angle of those kisses
until blood alters the volume of things
and a repressed joy reaches the color of fire.

Your pleasure is my body's mirror
stretching itself like a silver thread
wound around my neck
saying
words.

"I can't help it, my love, i can't help it" by Carilda Oliver Labra

I can't help it, my love, I can't help it
when I go into your mouth, and I linger;
and almost without warning, almost for naught,
I touch you with the tips of my breasts.

I touch you with the tip of my breasts
and with my unshielded loneliness;
and even perhaps without love as a guide
I can't help it, my love, I can't help it.

And my fate as a sheltered fruit
is consumed by your lustful and hesitant hands
like a poison's broken promise.

And though I'd like to kneel down and kiss you
when I go into your mouth, and I linger,
I can't help it, my love, I can't help it.

Happy New Year!!!!

And that this coming year will be a rocking one for all of us goddamnit... WOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!

Remember that i love you all and the ones who keep reading my stupid lines and ramblings... :)

Lot's of kisses... :*

Peace <3

Best albums of 2005

For the bod... :)

Fiona Apple : Extraordinary Machine (Demos & Album)
The Kills : No Wow
The Cardigans : Super Extra Gravity
Goldfrapp : Supernature
Kate Bush : Aerial
Feist : Let It Die
Antony & the Johnsons : I Am a Bird Now
Architecture in Helsinki : In Case We Die
M.I.A. : Arular
Sufjan Stevens : Illinois
Sleater-Kinney : The Woods
Queens of the Stone Age : Lullabies To Paralyse
Animal Collective : Feels
The New Pornographers : Twin Cinema
Clap Your Hands Say Yeah : Clap Your Hands Say Yeah
Broadcast : Tender Buttons
Ladytron : The Witching Hour
Beck : Guero
The Decemberist : Picaresque
Broken Social Scene : Broken Social Scene
Maria Daniela y Su Sonido Lasser : Maria Daniela y Su Sonido Lasser

Special mention to: Muse / Absolution... :D

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Merry Xmass to ya all !!!

I haven't been bloggin' much because i'm relaxing at home damnit, and i don't have anything interesting to write about yet... *shy*

January is going to be a tough month, two jobs in one day, and not easy jobs. Both require time and efford. But i think i'm going to put my energy on the Film Festival because it's more rocking... :P

Jean Claude Carriere is coming, so is Todd Solondz again, and many more... woooo!!!!

Merry christmas to ya all my lovelys, that all your wishes come true and that the nice cool spirits stay with us all... :)

Love... <3

Happy Birthday Yeebert!!!!

And that all your dreams come true goddamnit... :D :*

*bear hug*

Love ya... :)

It was so sudden...

It's december already. Haven't this year gone so damn fast? I feel like it's been just a few months since i worked in the Film Festival and in Radar. But no, it was in february.

I saw Ely Guerra last night. I went with my best friend Danaé, we are Ely's fans from some time now. We got there on time, half hour early. The theather is so big, she never played there, with her own show, she has done several collaboration on that stage, but never alone with her band.

She was awesome and puntual as ever, her voice magnificent, her band (Ezequiel & Hernán the most) are awesome professional trained musicians. The visuals where good too. Three hours of pure bliss, perfect connection with the audience. The best part of the whole concert is that she played ANGEL DE AMOR (Angel Of Love), my favorite song of hers, she played that very powerfully, i cried of happiness because she never plays that song, it was a special moment.

Anyway, my point is that it rocked, it rocked like she always does but better and bigger and powerfull and more beautiful.

:)

Bloggyversary!!!!

It has been a year since i write in here, so, this is my bloggyversary.

Thank you all you guys who read my stupid writings and my thoughts, it means a lot to me. I love each and everyone of you.

Special thanks to Da Pie and Da Lou for this great design. Love you guys like you can't imagine how.

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Happy Birthday Isa!!!!!!!

Happy birthday to my dear sister Isadora!!!!!!

And that all your dreams and hopes come true... :)

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Belly

No, it's not an entry about Tanya Donelly's band... :D

My stomach has been not good lately, and i've eaten some pretty unhealthy stuff since i work with Blanca. But yesterday it was the worst, because i started to feel really really ill, my body was like an ice cube and started to hurt. I was sooo weakend that i wasn't even hungry. Thank god Pris was there so i could return home with someone because i can't imagine what would've become of me... :'(

I came home and i couldn't walk, eveything hurted. I got home and i was burning in fever, i had so much cold that it was unbearable.

I feel better now, but my body still hurts... :'(

Love ya all... :*

Report

WOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

I haven't writen anything in quite some time now... :O

I'm sorry for those who are still interesting in reading my bloggy that i haven't done anything to update, but i've been quite busy.

Work this week has been heavy, because this saturday was a thing called "Third Collective Circuit" that is an all day art festival in different parts of downtown. Blanca went to a baptism in the morning and i was in charge of all the press work of 16 places and the coordination of a mural workshop that was in the street. I walked all day long and sat down a total of 30 minutes during ALL DAY.

It was hell, but at the end i went to a presentation of a book of latin american women poets and two wonderfull ladies made the introduction, I want those books.

Anyway, i love you all and i'll write more often, i promise... :)

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Pleasant Surprise

I had such a hard day at work. Lot's of emails to send and stuff... :D

Anyway, the hardest part of going to work is to get there and to get home, because i make almost 2 hours of traveling (metro and bus and walking).

But, i got home and Isadora gave me a lovely package of Mr. & Mrs. De Jager (a.k.a. Pieter & Fiona)... WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

Thank you "both" so much goddamnit... i love you beyond words... :)

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Evidence... ;)

Ha!

I'm not going to make plans for anyone anymore. It's not fair that i'm more than willing to travel a large distance to see somebody and that somebody isn't willing to do the same thing for me.

It's really not fair. Last time i do it, really the last time. Those who want to see me, they will come to see me or at least try.

Blah, fuck it.

Love and War (11/11/46)

All is fair in love and we're in love.
Now that everybody's dead, we can finally talk.
Can vanity and happiness coexist?
All the lovers we've taken in direct view of the enemy.

And we shift each other's body to accept the bullet
And continue the pleasure; the treasures of battle.
It's only for the wounded, the purple-hearted.

Why must you try to ruin my peace of mind?
And they were only words and i've never meant them
I never loved you, even in my weakness.
You were fuel for the fire, cannon fodder.

When my grandpa drank, fell and broke his face in two;
When the cops arrived, he exclaimed "i fought in world war ii"
And then they carried him to a darkened hospital room
And said "no modern person here remembers you,
And we can't identify the enemy,
And it could be you, so it'll cost you."
"it already cost me my wife and my job, now what?"

When my mom and i went to identify the body,
And i wanted to see but she wouldn't let me.
I had to wait for the military cemetary
And when we got there, this is what she said to me:
"love and war, in heaven and in hell,
You get what you deserve-- you'd better spend it well.
All is fair in love and war-- and love,
A civil war like this, it always sells itself."

Amos

You will never be forgoten my dear, you made a girl very happy and i know you'll going to keep an eye on her forever.

May you rest in peace lovely boy...

My heart is with you.

Thinking days...

Well, lemme tel you something. It's very hard adapting to a job you kinda don't like at all.

The thing is this. I'm assisting my friend Blanca to do various stuff in her office, and that means i have to do a lot of stuff for other people besides Blanca. She works in the Historical Center Foundation, and the foundation has a thing called "Cultural Hall" or something, that does big ass events every few months. The girl who was helping Blanca before me let people boss her around and made stuff for them, kinda being everyones assistant too, buy only payed by one, you know?

It's too much work for one person. Besides, it's press job, you all know i hate talking to people by phone (hahahaha!!!) and i'm so fucking shy, AND IT'S PRESS. :P

Anyway, i'm rambling, i don't know what i'm writing. I'm very confussed. I wanna scream and kick and everything... :'(

Oh well... :/

Jobbert

Well my darlings, I HAVE A JOB!!!!!!!!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! Finally!!! :D

I got a call from my friend Blanca (who is the Communication Director of the Historical Center Foundation) and she told me that she needed and assistent so urgently, so she asked me if i can get right to work next monday so... I SAID YES!!!! :D

I'm kinda happy and nervous, because this is my first real office, full-time job of my life... *scared*

:)

Parting Gift

I opened my eyes
While you were kissing me once more than once
And you looked as sincere as a dog
Just as sincere as a dog does,
When it's the food on your lips with which it's in love

I bet you could never tell
That I knew you didn't know me that well
It is my fault you see
You never learned that much from me

Oh you silly, stupid pastime of mine
You were always good for a rhyme
And from the first to the last time
The signs says 'stop'
But we went on whole-hearted it ended bad
But I love what we started
They said 'stop'
But we went on whole-hearted it ended bad
But I love what we started

I took off my glasses
While you were yelling at me once more than once
So's not to see you see me react
Should've put 'em, should've put 'em on again
So I could see you see me sincerely yelling back

I bet your fortressed face
Belied your fort of lace
It is by the grace of me
You never learned what I could see

Oh you silly, stupid pastime of mine
You were always good for a rhyme
And from the first to all the last time
All the signs says 'stop'
But we went on whole-hearted it ended bad
But I love what we started
They said 'stop'
But we went on whole-hearted it ended bad
But I love what we started

Fiona is a fucking genious damnit, period. <3

Movies

WOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

This weekend was all about the cinema. American Visa, Gol!, Thumbsucker, Au Hasard Balthazar, Cecil B. Demented, Home For The Holidays and Corpse Bride.

Thumbsucker sucker is awesome, great performances all around and a beautiful Elliot Smith filled soundtrack.

Home For The Holidays it has to be one of the warmest film i've ever seen. I saw it in NYC, 10 years ago exactly and it still blows me away. Anne Bancroft was one of the greatest.

Au Hasard Balthazar is very beautiful, deep and moving film. From a nice synopsis "A profound masterpiece from one of the most revered filmmakers in the history of cinema, director Robert Bresson’s Au hasard Balthazar follows the donkey Balthazar as he is passed from owner to owner, some kind and some cruel but all with motivations beyond his understanding. Balthazar, whose life parallels that of his first keeper, Marie, is truly a beast of burden, suffering the sins of man. But despite his powerlessness, he accepts his fate nobly. Through Bresson’s unconventional approach to composition, sound, and narrative, this seemingly simple story becomes a moving parable of purity and transcendence."

Corpse Bride is simply stunning. Brilliant.

And Cecil B. Demented rocked, like any other John Waters film... hahaha!!! :P

Hugs... :)

Look For Me (I'll Be Around)

When you tire of all the bright lights
Haste that’s killing and you’re willing to stay home nights
When your feet are back on the solid ground
Look for me, i’ll be around

When the new crowd starts to bore you
Just remember there is someone to adore you
When you're weary of nights out on the town
Look for me, i’ll be around

May not seem exciting the way those others do
I’m emotion, my devotion
You will need some day as I need you

When the kicks go that it brings you
You will hanker for an anchor just to cling to
When you’ve lived it up till it’s got you down
Look for me, look for me
Look for me, i’ll be around

Awesome lyrics not? :O

<3

Update

Well, it's being a week since i wrote something, so i better write an update for you who read this and it's the same for a week... :P

I've been kinda busy making presents and buying stuff for the band. It's super nice to make hand made art stuff for them, to see how much i love them... :)

And yesterday i went to a wedding. Isabel and Esteban got married and it was very pretty. It was simple and with no pretentions. I know Isabel from the Radar office, she works in the Festival that host Radar. She is a damn fine girl and Esteban rocks, and they both look very very happy.

I'm listening to Antony & The Johnsons and Fiona Apple like crazy... WOOOOO!!!!!!!

Quiet

Baby says I can't come with him
And I had read all of this in his eyes
Long before he even said so
Why go, I asked?
You know, and I know why
And it'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
I don't expect anything

Take care
I've been hurt before
Too much time spent on closing doors
You may hate me, but I'll remember to love you
Goodbye
Don't cry
You know why
And it'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
I don't expect anything

All the waves of blame arrange as broken scenery
As they steal your best memories away
What if I was someone different in your only history?
Would you feel the same
As I walk out the door
Never to see your face again

And it'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
It'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
I don't expect anything to change when I leave

Kozobert

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

I got my package (FINALLY!!!) that P sent me for my birthday. It was a mug, A FUCKING AWESOME MUG DAMNIT!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

With a beautiful letter and a fucking awesome postcard.

Thank you so much bodfred, you rock so much!!!! :*

:)

It's up to me now...

Turn on the bright lights...

4 Colors

Well, this is going to be a very productive week i think.

I have lots of stuff to do for a special freak out there and i have to hurry up, because by this time, he's going to have gifts for two birthdays... :D

I saw Pris and Paty yesterday evening. Paty brought Fausto, he's a sweetie and he's soo beautiful. He looks and acts so cool damnit, i wish i could be like him.

<3

Question...

Would L love me more if i buy all of Metallica albums and join her in the secret cult she has for them? :O

:D

WOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!! :P :*

Uhm...

I feel annoyed damnit.

Why does someone has to try and make them see things their way and not undertanding yours? It's like "damn, why does it have to be your way ALWAYS, and when it's someone else's way it's WRONG"

I'm a very respectfull person and all, but i just want to say FUCK FUCK FUCK YOU AND LET ME BE!!

I feel like and idiot for liking something other people don't, and i should't damnit. But i can't help it. Why is it wrong to like something other people don't like? I think it's perfectly ok if i like it or not like it. I'm gonna end up hearing what i like and other people would end up burning the cd in a trash can, WTF cares?

:P

Fausto

This is Fausto, the son of my friend Paty, He's the cutest thing ever damnit... WOOOOOOO!!!!!

:)

Interpol...

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

Well, i just can't describe what i felt in the concert, besides extremly happy and moved, not THAT moved like the PJ concert, but moved.

The band was so happy and they rock live. The setlist was ok, i really was hoping they did Untitled like the first concert, but it rocked anyway... :)

DANIELLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!! *salivates*

Ohhh, and Da Bod is jealous because i had Stella and he didn't... :D :P ;)

Happy Birthday Loubert!!!!!!!!!

And that all of your wishes come true my darling, i love you very very much... :) :*



WOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!